21 days in on 30 Day Program
byon 11-22-2008 at 01:41 AM (709 Views)
This week has been harder with staying raw all day. I'm not sure why this is, mostly I'm still not satisfied with my dinner meal. I made an eggplant chili that was pretty good and had that a few nights, but then didn't plan anything else. And when dinner started coming around, I was bored, and didn't want was there. I love my green smoothies, love salads, just feeling a bit burnt out on those things.
I'm going to hunt down some more recipes to support my goal of staying raw that last 10 days. It has been helpful staying raw, number one, I've proven to myself I can do it.
I haven't had any other great revelations from it, or side effects, other than losing weight and inches. I mean I was hoping for more energy and ability to sleep better. I was hoping that I'd feel vitalized, and I don't.
I think I am still in this grieving stage with my grandmother that makes it difficult to feel happy in general. Nearly every day I think I'm supposed to call her up, and then I remember, she's not around. Or that this year she won't be spending any holidays with us. that I don't get to buy her a gift.
Plus, my family in general is in distress for various reasons, and the whole holiday thing is going to hell in a handbasket. SO far, I've been not invited anywhere for Thanksgiving. My mom won't be doing one, and she said she's happy to stay home and watch tv.
I've not been invited anywhere for christmas, and so feel abandoned a bit.
My sleeping schedule totally sucks. I feel so wiped out this week. Was up to 4 or 5 am the other day struggling to sleep (i have a sleep disorder) and by the time I got up it was 12. I hate sleeping late and now with it being dark by 5, it leaves no real daytime.
Ok, I'm done complaining, but I just think there are a lot of factors that are making more difficult to keep me doing raw all the way because I'm upset a lot this week and feel, I guess, more uninterested in whether I make raw work for me this week. This week, I feel like it just doesn't matter as much as I thought it did.
SO, I'm going to get RE-ENERGIZED and pull out the stops for the rest of the month!