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Good morning... whew - Hula competition is over - so I won't have to be wearing a football helmet to protect my brain any more from all those hellish commericals!

I woke up to a surprise this morning -- a small indentation where my waist used to be! Yes - I'm sure of it - the glorious reemerging of a waist line again!! Woohoo!! Button my pants AND a waist line?? O yea! O yea!! Who's the RAWBIE? O YEA!! !

Seeing progress is wonderful. I had someone comment on my weight loss last week at Hula class - in fact it was rather odd in the way that she did it. One of the newer students - (a lady about my age) grabbed me and practically spun me around and demanded to know WHAT I'm doing ! My Kumu (hula teacher) was talking at the time and I was just mortified! You just don't talk when the KUMU is talking! The the lady says "Are you SICK? You're losing so much weight so fast." I didn't know what to say or do... everyone in class was staring at me INCLUDING MY KUMU... I sorta
shrank back a bit and said "Shhhh - I'll talk to you later..."
And she just continued.... "It's okay if you WANT to lose weight - but so long as you're not SICK..." I just whispered "no - I'm not sick -I'm getting healthy." and THEN she says.... "Well, okay - if that's what you REALLY WANT TO DO." ..... CAN YOU IMAGINE???? if that's what I REALLY WANT to do??? LOL... unreal !

I must be losing weight in my face but personally - I can't seem to see that drastic of a change (my husband has commented on being able to see my cheekbones too.) I read that people that have an 'overweight' mentality - often see themselves as still fat - even though they've lost weight. When I look in the mirror - I still see fat on my tummy - cellulite in my thighs - yaddah yaddah yaddah...

The other day - I decided to look in the mirror and really see what was there - my first thoughts were my usual thoughts -- yewww look at your hanging belly... then I stopped and realized - I'm only focusing on the negative. Seeing what I think is wrong - So - I started over.

Okay- now what do I see, hmmmm...

A woman that can now button her pants that she hasn't been able to do for almost a year!! Okay - good!!

I see that my belly isn't as big as it used to be - GOOD!!

I see... my hips are not hanging 20 inches on either side of the toilet anymore when I sit down LOL!! REALLY GOOD!!

and I see a woman who has finally found her strength - a woman who has determined to become healthy - a woman who has stopped smoking 1 pack of cigarettes a day (since I was 11 years old and now I'm 50... that's a lot of years of poison!)

and stopped drinking alcohol every night ... VERY GOOD!!

AND... a woman who has been 100% RAW for 16 days and lovin' it!

I gotta admit though - I keep looking in the mirror and saying "Am I glowing yet? do I have that RAW healthy glow yet??" sigh - I know it's only been 16 days! I can be patient -- as I've read so many times on this site... it didn't take 2 weeks to become unhealthy - give your body the time it needs to repair itself! Or as Alissa says in her book - don't expect your body to repair itself in two days - that's just not fair... Amen Alissa - amen :)

the other thing I've noticed - and I was wondering if it's just normal... I'm truly not hungry. I read last night Rachels journal again (it's so inspiring), and in it she talks about before - when she was eating SAD... she'd get full then later be famished again - but with RAW - she gets a definite YOU ARE FULL... and just can't eat another bite. I'm experiencing that - and that's good. I also looked at what she was eating on a daily basis - and on many days she really didn't have much to eat. That was good for me to read because I (lately) have just not been hungry.

So -- on the average I drink approximately 10 glasses of water throughout the day and that's just normal for me - I looove water! good thing too - I needed it to dilute all that alcohol my body was having to process!!

Yesterday I ate:
1 pear
1 orange
3 round slices about 1/4 inch thick of cucumber dipped in onion dip (Alissa's recipe) along with
1 carrot slice about 2 inches long
Salad - of which I ate about 6 bites.

the salad was delicious - I was just too full to eat any more so I stopped.
The salad had on it -
mixed greens and purple lettuce
alfalfa sprouts
snow peas
olives
fresh corn
fresh peas
about 2 tablespoons of avocado
slivers of white onion (just a small amount)
for dressing - raspberry vinegar and Braggs

the day before I ate:
1 orange
1 pear
1 celery stick with almond butter and small amount of honey
Nori roll with onion dip (Alissa's recipe - avocado and sprouts)
I ate less than half of that - and I was really full - so I stopped eating.

So - I've been kinda worried that I'm not getting enough nutrients - cuz I'm just not eating enough -- but other than still feeling a bit fatigued off and on - I'm feeling great - I have bursts of what I call 'fun energy' where I just find everything fun and rosy and I feel energized. The fatigue seems to set in later in the afternoon - and I just want to go take a nap. Along with my one day of crankiness... I'm doing great! So - I guess I'll just pay attention to my body and continue to monitor how I'm feeling...

Today is Hula practice - Yipee!! hope that crazy lady doesn't talk in the middle of class again! I'm more than willing to share w;) ith her about my raw journey - just NOT IN THE MIDDLE OF CLASS!!!

It was pouring rain this morning so I wasn't able to do my walk, but I'll definitely get a work out at hula - so that's cool..