This is my Nineveh!
So why so glum?
Things have been a bit rough. While my sugar has been 120 or better for the past four days, living with my dear bf has not been so great. It's unrealistic and cruel of me to ask him to stop on the way home or take me to the store every other day to prevent the... OMG my eyes are bigger than my stomach syndrome I suffered with the last big trip. Which is really strange, considering we have to leave for work an hour early daily in order for him to stop at the store for smokes, gatorade/powerade and Monster drink....
I'm just trying to keep things very very simple to start. I've been waffling back and forth since the doctor was like.. you can have wheat. Come to find it, the allergy is looking like a binding agent found in some cooked foods and medications. We're working hard to identify which binding agents which so far haven't turned up in anything I've eaten, but will require tons and tons and tons of testing. Wheee...
One of the reasons I'm waffling, it's liberating to know there are less things to be afraid of and because I'm feeling very down, very depressed and very unsure of myself.
The boyfriend has not ben supportive, not been encouraging and everything has been about him, what he has, what he has to give up, when, in the long run, the only person who is ever making any sort of sacrifices for our relationship other than not going anywhere when he's drinking because it's not save, is well.. me.
Socially, I've become inept. I know I'll regain those skills again in the future but we've fallen so far apart when it comes to goals and just life style and standard of living that I'm just depressed and feeling lost.
I guess I just need to keep working toward moving forward and hoping that I'll get there.
Hoping that everyone is having an amazing "day".