emotional detox - day 8
I made it through the weekend all RAW! Yeah!
Today I got hit with major emotional detox. I was crying at the drop of a hat - sometimes for no apparent reason at all. And once I started, I couldn't stop. By lunchtime I had spent 2 hours on 3 crying jags. I had intense cravings for cooked food - cheese in particular, but really for just about anything. I just wanted to stuff, stuff, stuff - binge to discomfort to soothe and distract. That was my SAD pattern. Today I broke that pattern!
I just realized that this moment. I've been so focused on how rough today was and just barely hanging in there. Now that I'm looking back on it, I'm amazing - I actually broke the pattern today. I didn't eat SAD and I didn't binge (even on RAW food). I just kept breathing and allowing it all to come.
I know it'll happen again, but I also know that it'll be easier next time because I've just strengthened myself today. Each time it'll get a little easier and easier still. And eventually, it will be my new patterns that are easier than the old. Yeah! It all started today...