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Hello raw food journal,

I slept late this morning. Just sleepy. Got errands to run this morning. I'm so blessed as to not to have to work through this. There's no way I would have made it working. When I'm well I'll see. Definately will work smarter and not harder. Too busy sometimes. Got to mail my money for my dehydrator today and my BLUEBERRIES are here-YAY! I can't wait to make a b/blueberry smoothie. Yummy! Craving all kinds of stuff.
Don't know what I'm going to make. I search the recipes on goneraw and I like to look at the recipe comments to see how people modify. It helps me. We are going to Kansas this weekend and I don't have a clue as tohow I'm going to get through this. I've been at home for the last 4-6 weeks and I haven't left the house very often. How am I going to pack food. I'll find a way-I'm not going to let this stop me. If I have to I'll pack Jack-He's my juicer. I honestly feel like my biggest battles were before I went raw. It was horrible. I have been going through some transition w/this and it's not been tooo bad. But my eating temptations were worse before I found raw. Trying to give up the certain foods. It was a vicious cycle that I was caught in. I would cry over the foods that I ate-My hubby hid foods from me and even took them away. No matter how hard I tried I couldn't leave the junk alone. It was almost like my body searched for anything to eat to stay alive. It ended up being a nutrient deficiency that caused me to eat to get satisfied. No minerals and vitamins were being absorbed. I remember going to the Ponderosa buffet and eating one day. The Lord spoke to me and something inside of me just broke. I just sat their and cried for some reason that I can't explain. It felt like a chain had been broken. I never ate at another buffet after that. My eating struggles seemed to lessen and then I stumbled into raw. I got help from a doc and we got my body to absorbing nutrients w/enzymes and then I went raw. Yea! Food makes me salivate when I'm really hungry-but I have no desire to pick it up and eat it. I think some of us carry food addictions and it's like a big chain around our necks -it may be related to self esteem, our past, emotions-and it keeps us tied to the junk even though we want free from it. I think it's called a stonghold.
I may use my cashews that I have drying to make chilli tonight.Yummy!
I ate so far:
*superfoods, strawberries, banana, hemp seeds, spinach water
*green smoothie-spinach, banana, green apple, 1/2 avocado, superfoods
(my favorite now)
*the most heavenly dessert-chilled blueberries, raw whipped cream-Yummmmy!-This is by far the best raw food I have made.-It's filling too. Very rich, My eyes were bigger than my tummy.
I used:
handful of soaked cashews-they digest better for me and they are softer
juice from a handful of grapes
little water
blend until creamy and smooth
I used a regular blender and it did fine. I'm sure a Vita-mix would make it extra creamy. But it had a nice consistency w/just the blender. I'm sooo excited. I could get used to this. I didn't use that many nuts because I didn't want to make whipped cream for all week. Just a snack. A handful was plenty!
I think this came from Alissa's book. I didn't have the recipe. I just remembered parts of it. A little dab will do ya!
YEA! RAW DAY NUMBER 17