Day 2 RE-DO / Avoiding the first bite
I feel like a total failure. I feel like I have all the knowledge in my head and the will to do this, yet I find my self yesterday, completely falling off the wagon in a big fat way.
I've got to keep focused on avoiding that first bite, because I know it's all downhill from there.
I have my fridge stocked up, raw foods at the ready, yet I still fucked it up at work yesterday. Maybe I need to bring food to work to sneak on when I'm hungry and not busy, instead of sneaking off into the walkin to stuff a muffin down my throat. I work as a waitress so I am around cooked foods all day long and on most days I cannot take a break so I am busy and working my ass off, when I get off work I just want to eat! I have been good about making myself a big fat raw salad at work at the end of my shift. I think the problem is when it is slow, I have a tendency to want to eat for some reason. I need to find something to fill that time other than eating.
What I'm going to do for today focus completely on what I eat and try my hardest to not have that first bite and if I do to get right back on it and not say "oh well, I'll just start tomarrow." Today is a new day!!
I'm going to look into some books on the pyschological aspect of eating, as I know I have many issues and addictions to deal with as well.