hanging in there
still hanging in. haven't been able to find time to have a heart to heart w/ dh. we've barely seen each other this past week due to WAY to many mandatories on the schedule, but that should lessen in the next week or so.
I'm not 100% right now, but doing okay at 80%. We are in big $$$ trouble right now so I have secretly added a grain for breakfast to help w/ the budget. So far it's been fine. No binging had been triggered-but I have a STRICT rule around the grains, and so far I have been able to stick to it.
I can ONLY have rice, millet, or quinoa. I can have no more than 1 bowl of air popped popcorn for a snack. (I have a certain sized bowl that I MUST use). You know what just dawned on me? I could have been SPROUTING the millet and quinoa this past week instead of cooking it!!! How did I forget that??? I will soak and sprout some this morning and see what happens.
School lets out at the end of the week. I will admit I am scared. The WORST time in my entire life was 3 summers ago. I had a small nervous breakdown. No kidding. I shook all the time, tears just poured down my face even when I wasn't crying. I couldn't sleep for days. It was HELL. I was a wreck and no one would help me. I have a debilitating fear that somehow I will have to go thru that again. My circumstances are different and much better, but every June I get this knot in my stomach not KNOWING how the dc will fare for the summer months. I do have them signed up for camp 3 days a week....hopefully ds#1 will go when the time comes.
anyway-thanks to all how have listened to me ramble this morning.