Day 24 and a Mis-step
Sigh. I'm just not strong enough yet. I got to the restaurant and felt intimidated, unable to stand out in a crowd and say "this is what I want to eat." So I ate what the others were having, a chicken salad sandwich.
Focus on what I learned: first of all, I got indigestion and gas from the food. Also, my eyes watered when I ate it, a sure sign of an allergy. So I will emphasize to myself the proof that cooked food is not digestible.
The good news is I didn't use it as an excuse to binge. I stayed raw all evening with no problems. So maybe I am making progress. I felt guilty about not being strong, but today is another day. I will get to the point where I can order a raw salad in a restaurant. There are two factors: one is I still crave cooked food so it's hard to resist, and the other is I hate to call attention to myself. When my raw lifestyle is so much a part of me that I can't imagine any other way to eat, both of those obstacles will be overcome.
And how I will celebrate when that time comes!
Meanwhile, I have to forgive myself and keep moving forward, one baby step at a time.