oh MAN. yesterday was fuckin' tough. i really wanted to take advantage of the fact that we get a free (heavy, deep fried, all-round disgusting) meal at work. but i didn't! hell yeah!!
i was seriously on the point of taking home a box of chicken strips and just eating them all. i was THIS close. but i didnt do it. that feels really good.
on another note, though, the reason why i had all those cravings was because i don't feel like this diet is working. i don't think i've lost much weight, if i haven't gained any. however, i'm gonna wait it out because my acne has KIND of cleared up (i still get a few zits here and there), and my moods are better overall (right now im having a fat&ugly day though.. more like a fat &ugly week... emotional detox?). oh, and i smell different.
i think possibly i've been eating way too much fat, like nuts and such in the form of lara bars (which richard and vince disposed of into their slimy bellies two days ago). hopefully my weight loss will pick up now that those are out of the picture.
i also think im gonna try food journaling for a week or two, or until i start forgetting to do it. so far today:
8:00a - 1 soaked almond, 2 mandarins, couple ounces of wakame
10a - 2 mandarins, 1c cashews, 1/2 avocado/w salsa
12p - lara bar (marcella's not mine!), 1 avocado, 1 tomato, broccoli
8p - 2 bananas
9p - 2 bananas, 1/2c salsa, 1c berries/w raw honey, handful of sprouts, handful of almonds
i think i eat a lot. i finished all the cashews in the house so those wont be a big deal anymore. i have to limit my nut intake. its fucken difficult because they are kind of bread-y, so i substitute them when i get a carb craving. i want to start eating more sprouts, because they have kind of a rice-like texture, kind of. blahhhhhhhhhhhh i want to lose some fucken weight already!!!!!