Need Encouragement :(
I have not been doing too well with being raw ever since my dh left for military training almost 2 weeks ago. Why does it have to be so hard?
I am so ashamed to admit that I made a batch of nobake cookies two days ago and, over the course of 2 days, ate every single one of them. Myself. That is 2 c. of white sugar, 1 stick of butter... You get the idea. I want to throw up. I can't stand to be in my body like this! I feel jittery, and dizzy, and miserable. I snap at the kids and my depression is way worse.
Anyone who says sugar isn't addictive is lying!! I have been addicted to sugar all my life.
I KNOW I need to clean up my diet. Raw makes me feel SO much better. Soooo, why is it SO HARD to stick to? I guess coming from SAD to raw is maybe a bit harder than coming from cooked vegan to raw? I don't know.
All I know is I want to heal!
So, what is the best plan of attack for a major sugar addict suffering from depression? I sometimes wonder if I am bipolar rather than just depressed, as I will have days where I will be on top of the world, getting tons of things done, and everything seems cleared and brighter. Then, I will fall into a black pit for a 4 or so day stretch. Then, back again. 'round and 'round...
I would appreciate any prayers or good thoughts or what have you at this time. I really REALLY want to overcome this. I don't want my children to suffer because of me.