~RawMamaSutra~

Got a lot planned for 2010 and hanging online just to be hanging is way down on the list.

Striving for optimal health in the new year plus hoping to grow my family.

So this blog is done for now!

Not sure that I'll be peeking at the threads or posting much either.

Adios Amigos! Catch you later.

Completed my first week of RAW on Wednesday and am please with the very beneficial jolt to my sluggish metabolism.

However, I've since encountered some mental roadblocks and stuff that's causing lots of metnal chatter regarding my commitment.

My mind wonders:

How much vibrance and vitality do I truely desire? Code for I still want M&M's, cheese, rice etc...

How much health and life would be gained if I simply committed to a HIGH RAW vegetarian ...

I feel good my weight release for weigh in Wednesday is 14 total lbs since 12/11

I officially reRaweed 12/16

Debating on wether or not to include my actual weight or release weight in my siggy

REally embarassing but I also want to be encouraging to others

OH the pressure of it all

Anyway, for now maybe jsut the releases

So excited...

Looked t a profile view of myself in the mirror and then turn backwards and looked over my shoulder and noticed 1 of four back rolls had disappeared.

Plus I'm normally long waisted btu altely have been now waisted. But today I'm high waisted with a muffin top ofabove my jeans. granted I've never had a muffin top and I don;t think it's all that attractive but it sure beats looking 6 months preggers when you are not.

So curves are returning ...

Insane out of this world craving for double cheese pizza, coke and a chocolate bar.

I was in a real bad place. Reached out to a few friends by text got some support and then cried cried cried...

Cried because I couldn't beleive the addiction was so severe
Cried because I didn't want to cave
Cried because the demand for crap made me feel like I had a hole in my gut

It waw all I could do to not send hubby to the store. Once 10:00p passed ...