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I've just discovered this book/group/movement.

Here is a tidbit worthy of contemplation:

Did you know, that you can expect extraordinary miracles to manifest in your life about 2% more often, simply by learning that your thoughts become the things and events of your life?

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And that you can expect extraordinary miracles to manifest about 25% more often, when you not only learn this, but you also visualize at least several ...

Today is supposed to be my 'start day' for my new more evolved plan, lol.

I have had two large, crisp and juicy fuji apples with cinnamon, which I love. I have NO bananas in the house which is making me sad a bit. I really depend on those!

Yesterday, I had a large fight with my spouse...the kind where you cry and don't speak for hours on end. :

Needless to say, I didn't have my planned Thai Friday night meal...because it was simply too awkward ...

Last we discussed, lol, I was going to just be vegan and gluten free and as much raw as possible and exercise but not stress about anything.

I talked about a great sense of peace overcoming me, and I think that when making a change, stumbling blocks can cause one's stress to levels to rise which make one seek an 'escape' and Check Out of the project. This only makes sense. I think I was sufficiently stressed with the project. The question is, why can I not be stressed out for two ...

as in lose 3 pounds, gain 2 back. I have done this twice now exactly, so now I am 2 pounds down; my new 'highest' weight is 2 pounds less than my old 'highest' weight.

The last time I lost weight, it was like this the Whole way...I find it amusing in a way, lol.

After a few days of intuitive veganish eating, I am feeling a renewed interest in raw again. I love all my raw food recipes...they have become part of my own little one-person culture and tradition. ...

In the past few days I have had to be brutally honest with myself.

I think I was approaching a lot of this raw thing with part idealism and ego, also with a lot of anxiety in giving up my cooked foods. There was also something in my head that insisted I could do it because I've done it for weeks and months before.

I really was refusing to see the obvious pattern. This pattern being that I would declare I was going raw the next day/next Monday...and eat to my heart's ...