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It's been exactly one week since I fasted last Saturday and lost 4 pounds in one day. I have now gained two back...last night I had a bunch of chocolate. I was So good all last week and something overtook me last night. I couldn't fall asleep....gah!

Part of me wants to throw in the towel and eat whatever today....and if I'm honest and look at my pattern it could easily turn into many days. I am writing here in an effort to vent and blatantly stare at the elephant in my room in an ...

Let's see...in a super fast rush so will just post some bulleted highlights. :)

*Did a full day fast and all day the next day to supper.

*Started realizing before the supper that if I didn't eat, I would soon lose any ground and probably eat 'like I haven't eaten in a week'...and I wouldn't want that happening! So I opted to not, not eat for a week, lol.

*Lost 4 pounds the first day...and another the second morning (after having just the supper)...ya, ...

The next day, after my previous blogpost, I was raw all day. Somewhere near supper time I decided to have a cooked supper. ....it all started because I decided to combine sparkpeople's counting calories (which I have been dabbling in when not raw) and in doing so, I realized that by supper time I had already managed to eat 2000 calories. (thank-you delicious nut-butter Asian salad dressing and honey-garlic sauce!) ...well that threw me, and I felt anxious...and as previously stated, anxiety is my ...

Last night I realized that I soothe myself with food. We talk about comfort food, but I feel I am a true addict in a way, as I must admit that I began life sucking my thumb, somehow outgrew that and had a normal childhood but maybe the stressors of my parent's divorce, teenage angst, etc. led to my cigarette smoking and when I quit smoking I then turned to food.
I have suspected that I am a food addict for awhile now, but wasn't sure if I would go as far as to say Addict. Anyways, perhaps ...

I am done school for 12 awesome weeks and am making it my mission to establish some seriously healthy and high raw habits and an exercise regime!

I start school (yes I know I just said I finished!) school in July, and unlike my previous distance ed program, this one is in the real life, bricks and mortar, face-to-face format. I want to be feeling positive about how I am looking as I realize that will translate into confidence, bonding and overall enjoyment of the experience. It is ...