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Oh boy... where to begin... I feel like I should start by saying sorry. It may sound silly, with this being a forum and all, but I will anyway! I made friends here, friends who supported me and were there to listen and respond to my ups and downs while being raw. I feel like I've abandoned every one. Silly sounding again I know! I really don't want to come off all dramatic, but there you go! These feelings struck me hard as I read Star's post yesterday. Star, as many of you already know, ...

Let me start by saying thanks to all you guys… each time I read the responses to my blogs I feel great, more and more “in charge”. It’s so awesome to know that you all care and care enough to reply, sharing your thoughts!!! Each one of you gives me a boost and sometimes a needed kick in the pants!!

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I have been thinking all day about my next painting. Usually I do large abstracts. I have this strange world inside my head where people, places, emotions, sensations ...

I’ve been reading blogs, catching up with everyone and there seems to be a common thread, something I may have missed before. Maybe because I’ve been so wrapped up in this “immediate” change that I’m hoping for, or maybe because this switch to raw is kinda overwhelming at first, but I see now that I wasn’t noticing the discussions about the BIG change, the GAOLS, the BIG PICTURES. I would read about the challenges of others and their dreams, not truly identifying except with regards to eating ...

So... I've been back at 100% raw for 4 days and MAN am I detoxing!!! Maybe the little sad stint super charged a needed detox, not sure, but this round of detoxing is more extreme then the first go around. My head feels like its going to crack wide open, I can't even bend over to pick up anything off the floor. (with 2 little ones I do that a lot!) I'm sooooo sleepy and my eyes burn. Yesterday I was starving and today I don't want to eat a thing. I think this is so terribly significant! ...

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I’m back home!!! The girls and I had a nice time in Colorado… lots of sun, blue skies, fresh air and family. I learned sooo much while away. First, I found it’s really easy to tell yourself that eating raw is “too difficult” and it becomes so very easy to go with the flow and eat sad. I did fairly well the first week, but then WHAM I gave in. I told myself, “Hey, I’m on vacation, I should enjoy myself and quit being a food Nazi.” (Like eating raw was such a big deal… ...