My Great Epiphany (excerpt from my journal)

[Purl]

It's been a week or so since I last posted in my journal. I've cut myself some slack while I learn how to do this whole raw thing. I have found that if I stop feeling guilty for a few bites of cooked food, then I stop giving the cooked food POWER in my life. It's really the guilt that causes the downward spiral for me. Yesterday I had popcorn again. But everthing else was raw. Today I have had all raw, and I will probably make it all day. If I don't, most likely the little non-raw will be 1 TBSP of roasted almond butter. I feel better and better on raw and the better I feel, the more I am drawn to raw. I have noticed my skin is getting better and my ds said last night "Mom, no one could call you fat anymore." :D What a confidence builder to know that my 8 year old is aware of the changes in me! It makes me WANT to make him proud. I think I just need to stop having such a negative attitude. I'm not perfect. My "slip-ups" are pretty small-it;s not like I go to McDonalds and eat 2 double cheeseburgers and a supersized coke. I eat in the realm of healthy cooked food. When I remove the guilt I feel free to CHOOSE raw, rather than feel oppessed by it, which leads to negative thinking, which, in turn, leads to guilty, sad, uncomfortable feelings that I "mend" with overeating.


Okay. Class dismissed.

[misslinda]

I eat in the realm of healthy cooked food. When I remove the guilt I feel free to CHOOSE raw, rather than feel oppessed by it, which leads to negative thinking, which, in turn, leads to guilty, sad, uncomfortable feelings that I "mend" with overeating.



I like this. you said it perfectly....ought to be published! :)

[pdx kris]

purl, way to go. seriously. guilt is really a four letter word in my opinion, and the sooner we can get over it, the sooner we can thrive!

congratulations on your epiphany!

[Rawmney]

Hi Purl!

Your attitude is great re: not making yourself crazy.

You mentioned "cheating" on popcorn. I was a popcorn-aholic. I'm new to raw and having some success with the Just Corn product (http://www.justtomatoes.com/html/product/corn1.html and i organic now too) as recommended by someone else (thanks to someone!). It looks expensive, but I don't eat a lot at one time. I add a little olive oil and salt and that seems to give me the crunchy-salty-fatty combo I like.

There was a thread on popcorn substitutes you may want to search for if this is a challenge for you.

Good luck!
Rawmney

[Miranda]

thank you for this beautiful post. i've had some slip-ups in the past few days, nothing MAJOR to anyone else...but they're major to me. i need to stop feeling guilty, i could learn a thing or two hundred from you :)
congrats to you!!!!

[Beanie]

Great post! One thing I have noticed, is that once I started ALLOWING myself to eat a serving of cooked food at night, suddenly I became MORE raw. And discovered that all I really wanted was some hot liquid. So at times I have eaten cooked, but then I realize it doesn't taste as good. I feel so much freer this way. My cravings seem to lessen if they are legal. I believe so much bingeing I hear on this board is from the you MUST be 100% raw. Guilt. My thoughts anyway. Thats what works for me.......slow and consistant changes.