Tamarind the Girl
01-09-2006, 08:04 PM
I was attracted to living a rawsome life for many reasons. There are too many specific reasons to name, however, because each affects the whole of my being.
At the core of it all, eating raw represents an unveiling process. As my body goes through detox and purifies itself of all the poisons that have kept me sick for so long, the blanket is also being pulled off of my emotions. I used to turn to food for comfort (particularly expensive drinks and fat-laden goodies from Starbucks)! Eating heavy, warm foods settled me in a sense. But I realize now that it was a false and deceptive sense of settling. Rather, these things were SEDATING me. So as I embark upon this journey, I feel very much like my 'blankey' has been snatched away. The longer I am eating raw foods, the more raw my emotions, the more sensitive my feelings, and the more fragile I feel. But going to cooked foods for comfort is something I refuse to do!!! I'd rather push forward and learn to cope with these changes to the whole of me, not just my body, because I know this is the only way I will ever be happy. The old way did not work. I don't want it anymore.
I feel deep shifts underway, like plate techtonics, and it has only been nine days!!! The smell of cooked foods makes me sick to my stomach, my skin looks awful (eczema = release of toxins), my appetite is a fourth of what it was, I've lost 9.5 pounds, I have not once been really tempted to eat cooked foods, an ache I've had for months in the arch of my left foot has vanished seemingly overnight, my digestion has improved, and I feel lighter, among other things. Emotionally, I feel more connected to life around me, at the same time that I feel super vulnerable.
I don't see ANY of these things as problems. They are all part of the process. As with any transformation process, there are bound to be growing pains. I can't say how grateful I am to have this forum to come to for support as I transition from a cocooned being... to... a... butterfly!
Tamarind the Girl
At the core of it all, eating raw represents an unveiling process. As my body goes through detox and purifies itself of all the poisons that have kept me sick for so long, the blanket is also being pulled off of my emotions. I used to turn to food for comfort (particularly expensive drinks and fat-laden goodies from Starbucks)! Eating heavy, warm foods settled me in a sense. But I realize now that it was a false and deceptive sense of settling. Rather, these things were SEDATING me. So as I embark upon this journey, I feel very much like my 'blankey' has been snatched away. The longer I am eating raw foods, the more raw my emotions, the more sensitive my feelings, and the more fragile I feel. But going to cooked foods for comfort is something I refuse to do!!! I'd rather push forward and learn to cope with these changes to the whole of me, not just my body, because I know this is the only way I will ever be happy. The old way did not work. I don't want it anymore.
I feel deep shifts underway, like plate techtonics, and it has only been nine days!!! The smell of cooked foods makes me sick to my stomach, my skin looks awful (eczema = release of toxins), my appetite is a fourth of what it was, I've lost 9.5 pounds, I have not once been really tempted to eat cooked foods, an ache I've had for months in the arch of my left foot has vanished seemingly overnight, my digestion has improved, and I feel lighter, among other things. Emotionally, I feel more connected to life around me, at the same time that I feel super vulnerable.
I don't see ANY of these things as problems. They are all part of the process. As with any transformation process, there are bound to be growing pains. I can't say how grateful I am to have this forum to come to for support as I transition from a cocooned being... to... a... butterfly!
Tamarind the Girl