dhammala
11-27-2005, 06:59 PM
Hi everyone,
During my 30 day challenge, around day 15 I entered into a real depressed/moody state. I knew on some level that this was an emotional detox, and I gave myself permission to let it be. It lasted for about two days and when I woke up after that, I felt very energized and emotionally clear. I remember being like "wow!" I felt like a 14 on the scale from 1 to 10, in fact, I was floored because I didn't realize that before (while eating my veggie SAD) that I must have had a slight depression and hovered around a 7 on that scale.
The 14 lasted throughout the rest of my 30 day challenge. During that time I noticed that I was feeling much more social, starting new projects and completing old ones, even cleaning up the house! Yes, one morning I woke up and found myself scrubbing the bathroom like never before! Yikes!
Now that my 30 day challenge was over, I found myself being very confused about what to eat. I chose to allow myself to eat some of the cooked food that I had craved over the 30 days, to watch how I felt and to take things from there.
Well, not too surprising but the day after I had my first cooked meal since the 30 day challenge, I woke up feeling emotionally miserable, moody, depressed, angry, irritable, etc. What is interesting is that I *don't* feel like I am in a place that is any different than where I used to be, but now that I have had the raw experience, I know what is possible and this is not where I want to be.
The obvious solution is to go back to raw, and I don't have a problem with that and am excited to get started again. That's not the reason I am posting this. I am curious to know how many of you have gone through this type of experience before? I am not able to distinguish the source of the moodiness/depression, does any one have any idea where these emotions might be coming from? Is it just a lack of energy? Is it a cooked food addiction? What are your thoughts?
During my 30 day challenge, around day 15 I entered into a real depressed/moody state. I knew on some level that this was an emotional detox, and I gave myself permission to let it be. It lasted for about two days and when I woke up after that, I felt very energized and emotionally clear. I remember being like "wow!" I felt like a 14 on the scale from 1 to 10, in fact, I was floored because I didn't realize that before (while eating my veggie SAD) that I must have had a slight depression and hovered around a 7 on that scale.
The 14 lasted throughout the rest of my 30 day challenge. During that time I noticed that I was feeling much more social, starting new projects and completing old ones, even cleaning up the house! Yes, one morning I woke up and found myself scrubbing the bathroom like never before! Yikes!
Now that my 30 day challenge was over, I found myself being very confused about what to eat. I chose to allow myself to eat some of the cooked food that I had craved over the 30 days, to watch how I felt and to take things from there.
Well, not too surprising but the day after I had my first cooked meal since the 30 day challenge, I woke up feeling emotionally miserable, moody, depressed, angry, irritable, etc. What is interesting is that I *don't* feel like I am in a place that is any different than where I used to be, but now that I have had the raw experience, I know what is possible and this is not where I want to be.
The obvious solution is to go back to raw, and I don't have a problem with that and am excited to get started again. That's not the reason I am posting this. I am curious to know how many of you have gone through this type of experience before? I am not able to distinguish the source of the moodiness/depression, does any one have any idea where these emotions might be coming from? Is it just a lack of energy? Is it a cooked food addiction? What are your thoughts?