Gave that scale the boot!

[calee]

I'm sure that some of you are so tired of reading me whine about not losing weight. I know I'm personally tired of it. I've been giving it a lot of thought this week and here's what I've come up with.

I'm 55 years old. In 2001 I did a year of heavy chemo type drugs that left me with Rheumatoid Arthritis for over a year. I followed that year with another year of Vioxx for the Arthritis so that I could use my hands. In 2004 my entire mouth was operated on and I had every tooth stitched back together. More drugs. I wish I had known about RAW back then, but I didn't. So my thought is that I have an incredible amount of inner healing to do. Probably more than most people, and certainly more than someone who's only 20 years old. I can't compare my recovery to anyone else and to do so has really been harmful to me. I have a lot more detoxing to do than most. I've been 100% raw more days than not during 2005 and even 100+ all strung together last spring and working on day 57 this time around. Not bad for my first year at it. Last year I was still eating more SAD than not.

So on Thanksgiving I decided to do the greatest act self love and to give that old scale the boot. I'm going to concentrate on eating optimally and exercising to help the detox process along. I'm not going to whine about my weight (Ok, so maybe sometimes!) and I'm going to concentrate on how vibrant I feel most days. I think that my energy on my best days are not even close to what they'll be after a few years of raw eating and detoxing.

This is really hard for me, but I'm going to practice self-love and let go of the results. I have a very special someone who watches over me and I'm going to turn over the results and just take this one day at a time. I know that I'm on the right path and nothing is going to get me off course.

Thanks to all of you who have encouraged me until I could get to this place. If any of you have stories about your scale, or your frustration along this path. I'd love to hear them!

[yeahbethany]

Congratulations, Calee!

You will never be sorry for loving yourself. I'm so proud of you!

[Sharon in Colorado]

That's the spirit! Throw that stinkin' scale to the curb, Calee!

[pink]

i have an electronic scale and weiged myself everyday. i have realised that my worth is not measured by what the scale says.
the scales are still in the kitchen. but i usually step over them. only occasionally getting on them, you will get there.

[RawTruth]

Calee, you've done the right thing. It's so easy to have your self-worth and progress tied into numbers on a scale when they have nothing to do with that at all. We're a society that's so into external achievement. I'm so glad you've reached the place where you've rejected that.

With tons of love and support and understanding, may I most gently suggest that the longer you're completely raw, the sooner you'll likely see some weight loss. I know you're an old hand at this (old not referring to your age at ALL since I'm with you there :D ) and I also know that you've struggled along the way. So, I'm sure you know this from reading about others. But, it's just so apparent from the people I've worked with that the miracles really start when they are all raw. I know Alissa's said it numerous times and we've linked to her posts on it, but it bears repeating (if for no other reason than there are lots of newbies reading this) that the difference between 90% raw and 100% is exponentially far far greater than just 10%; it's often the difference between reaping the benefits of the lifestyle and not.

How wonderful that you're at 57 days of 100%. It's inevitable -- truly -- that the weight will start coming as long as you stay raw.

Wishing you only the best in this exciting time in your life!

[rawpriestess]

good for you,

What a wonderful place to be in your life.

Many blessings,
Rawpriestess

[Rawmommie]

I'm there with you! I don't know that I'm ready to stop complaining and whining yet, but I'm weighing less and less. I'm only 32, so I don't know what my body's excuse is for sitting at 200 for months on end, but I have to believe that eventually when it's ready, things will change.

And maybe, just maybe, even if they don't, I will love myself enough that it won't matter! It's about being healthy and doing the best thing for MY body. You are very right, comparing never helps. Thank you for the reminder! :)

[SparklePlenty]

What you said is exactly what I needed to read this mroning and I let it into my heart. I had a meltdown last night and this morning about weight, body image, etc and what to do, what to do. Felt angry, sad, blaming, powerless, etc etc etc....you know the whine, I'm sure!
I know what to do and am more willing than ever. Your post said it all....100% raw, detox and heal the body, and the weight loss will come when it's time. I am 60 and very committed to being radiant, happy and loving myself. Period. Raw is what i need to do. and I do hear the statements about the ultimate distinction between 90% and 100% raw. And I will let go of the results and trust that this is the path for me.
So I will eat raw, exercise, and love myself through it. I will hold on for dear love when I want some SAD and know that the craving will pass and eventually diminish.
I got out a beautiful 8x10 photo of me at around 8 months old to remind me of who I really am: a beautiful, magnificent, radiant, delighted, happy, loving, sparkly, smiling, perfect, whole, joyful spirit!

Thank you all for making my day, and for being here!

One loving thing I will do today besides eat raw and exercise, is to order that dehydrator i've been wanting. It is a gift that will make this easier for me.

With love and gratitude,
Jan
xx

[tracyinfo]

Way to go Calee. I'm happy to hear your story.

Blessings.

[myssi]

I don't know if anyone is into homeopathic medicine, but I've found that Bach Flower Essences can really help. They heal you on an energetic/emotional level. "Crab Apple" can not only help you detox, but it also helps you to accept yourself just the way you are. It's good for when you really feel down about yourself or your appearance.

www.bachflower.com

Myssi

[RawTruth]

I got out a beautiful 8x10 photo of me at around 8 months old to remind me of who I really am: a beautiful, magnificent, radiant, delighted, happy, loving, sparkly, smiling, perfect, whole, joyful spirit!How wonderful, SparklePlenty. I love that you're acknowledging and honoring your inner child. What important work you're doing.

[twinee1]

Good for you. That is a Huge step to take.

I like so many women have had a life long love/hate relationship with the scale. But I am now only weighing in from time to time, last one 3 weeks or so.

I had to laugh at myself thinking of all the times another human being did not make me cry (like a husband... :rolleyes: ) but the scales have. Silly silly.

So great for you.

[JMD]

I used to weigh myself once a week and found my moods too high or low depending on the number. The day before I made sure I ate more cucumbers and celery. Yup, I got some control issues here :p I have stopped weighing in this month and find I have also felt more peaceful , surrendered, less self-obsessed, and thinner?? Go figure that. So CONGRATS!!! and keep up the good work.

All my best,
JMD

[calee]

Wow, so nice to receive so much support. Thank you all for responding!

Sparkleplenty, I'm so happy that there's been something in this thread that you found helpful. I generally find when I speak up, that I'm not the only one. I think that feeling alone always makes any issues appear larger than life, when in reality it's just another stepping stone along my path.

I'm still feeling great about the scale being gone from the bathroom. I don't miss it a bit and certainly don't miss that feeling of... OMG, what is it going to say this morning! I like basing how I'm feeling not by the number on the scale but by how rested I feel, how easily I can touch my toes and how my face looks as I watch myself brush my teeth.

[ljcoolj]

Did you know that stressing about your weight can actually make your body hang on to it?!?!?!? Its not healthy to stress....about anything, but especially your weight. Take care of your health from the inside and the outside will eventually fall in line. Think more about how great you feel when eating raw and healthy....your body will follow your lead :)

[calee]

Hi LJ,

I do know that and that's why I gave the scale the boot. They say we create whatever we focus on, so I'm going to focus on a healthy body.

Thanks for the reminder!
calee

[tvillemom]

calee....I love that. Unfortunately, I feel like I spent a FORTUNE for my scale (not really, but I feel that way!) and my DH is trying to loose weight (working out, and a SAD hi-protien diet) but weighs himself almost everyday. I will however make SURE I DON'T weigh in but once a week or maybe even once a month! YEAH....I'm starting 100% (again! :mad: ) on DEC. 1st with a friend....I think I'll make a VOW not to weigh till the end of the month!! :D Good health is the goal now for me anyway, so why do I need to weigh? Thanks for the inspiration!!
Wendi

[calee]

Hi Wendi,

How smart of you to come back to 100%!! You are one bright woman. :)

It must be difficult to have a SAD eating husband when you're trying to get back to optimal eating. I never found the scale to help me with that! Let us help support you in doing what you know is right for your body.

Good luck!
calee