Back one year later...

[Melissa]

It's almost exactly one year since I started journaling here...and so many things have happened in my life, mostly good things. I've been raw, high raw, non raw and everything in between--learned a lot about my body, mind and spirit. I took a hiatus from all-raw for the last few months, focused on strengthening my marriage and family (doing great) and adjusting to a wonderful new job. We also decided to try for another child...nine years after having my son. It's the right time at last. (We've been coping with caring for elderly relatives and under too much stress previously.)

I got pregnant in late September but unfortunately it ended last week in an early miscarriage. So now I'm drawn back to high raw (to be jumpstarted with a juice fast) to cleanse and balance my body (what a hormonal roller coaster ride) and get ready for another try in a couple of months.

So I just want to say "hi" to those who recognize me from my past journaling and let you know I'll be doing another 30 day challenge (high raw) and doing a little journaling again. I just started a blog www.glimmergirl.typepad.com where I'll be journaling the whole pregnancy adventure--determined to journal it all until there's a baby in my arms.

Hope you're all doing well. Wish me luck and if you have any tips for me, I may post a thread in Parenting about miscarriage/pregnancy.
~Melissa

[Rawkinlocs]

Hi Melissa! *waves*

I'm SO sorry to hear about your loss :(

But welcome back and best to you and your family with trying again!

[Rawmommie]

Melissa, I'm so glad you are back! We have followed a similar path with raw, starting at the same time and slipping away from it only to find ourselves back here where we know our bodies and minds belong. I'm on day 22 and keep wondering what ever drew me away from raw in the first place?!?!

I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. Good luck conceiving again!

[Melissa]

Thanks you two! Good to hear from you both. And thanks for the good wishes for our next pregnancy attempt. We're really thinking positively.
Just added a photo for New Journal here and looking forward to tracking how things go. I'll check in on both of your journals too--Good to have/give support with old-time raw friends :)

[Ireland]

Melissa, welcome back! So sorry to hear about your loss.

I trust you'll find strength and comfort here again as well as renewed determination to continue on your raw journey.

[beauty4ashes]

Hi Melissa,

I'm glad to see you back, I had not spoken "posted" to you before but I remember seeing a segment of your journal. I'm sorry to hear about your miscarriage. It's something you don't ever want to go thru again! I don't know what the deal is, we've had three, and now with yours that makes four that I am aware of here at rawfoods. just since September. I was one of them. But like you I am now so motivated to be as healthy as I possibly can. I want a precious new baby in my arms too!
Praying God will bless you with a new little one as well.

[Cinnamon]

Welcome back Melissa, I am so sorry for what you've been through with your loss and also wish you the very best on your next try!

I've always enjoyed your posts and journal so I am very happy to see you back again!

Aren't you the one who introduced us all to that wonderful Pecan Praline Ice Cream?? Yummy!

[sweetgoddess]

It is very good to see you again Melissa, and welcome back to the forum.
I send you empathy and warm thoughts as you heal from your miscarraige.
I hold the happiest of blessings in my heart for your next and successful conception and pregnancy.

Cheers to your raw health!

Warmly~
Carmel

[emmaann]

Hi Melissa,

YEAH, glad you are back. I think we slip away and realize "did we ever REALLY slip away?"..........For some reason we KEEP COMING BACK!! Your determination is inviting!! We will be cheering you on, on your journey!!

Best to you and your wonderful family,

RAWESOME,

ac :)

[Autumn]

Melissa,
Nice to see you back. I am very sorry about your miscarriage. I have had many myself, so I know exactly what you are going through. My very best thoughts and wishes in your next attempt. :)

[SamL]

Welcome back Melissa, I remember you.

I've been a little preoccupied myself, as it seems we're travelling along the same road at the moment. I'm trying (still) for a baby in my arms. I've had 2 miscarriages this past year.

Lots of prayers for you on your journey back to empowerment.

[Melissa]

All of your comments and support means a lot! I'm very touched. For those who've had recent miscarriages and are still trying, I'm wishing you the best luck too. This was my first (and hopefully only) miscarriage and, though I knew it could happen, I guess I never thought it would. Anyway, I hope we can support eachother as we all try again. SamL, thanks for posting at my Glimmer Girl blog. I'm going to blog daily there about my quest for a baby, and I'll be adding lots of poetry and photography. A therapeutic and fun activity to help me get through this in a positive frame of mind.

Thanks again everyone!

[Punky]

Great to see you on the boards again Melissa!
I have missed your posts.

I'm so sorry to hear about your loss.
Many blessings sent your way
in hopes of a precious little one coming to you soon.

Hugs,
Chris

[Ariannah]

Nice to meet you, Melissa! Sending prayers your way for a dear little one.
Ariannah

[vegggeeemom]

Melissa,

Welcome back.

I am so sorry to hear about your loss.

I also had a miscarriage last month and understand the emotional roller coaster that you go through.

Again welcome back!

[Melissa]

...warm my heart and really help me! Thanks for all your thoughts. I love thinking of a "precious little one" coming my way soon. That's my focus right now.

Pam (and all who've had miscarriages) I'm sorry to hear about your loss last month. I'm here if you ever need support around this. Trying again? If so, sending lots of good luck your way. I'm keeping a daily weblog about my baby quest...I'm going to write until there's a baby in my arms...so feel free to drop in (address below) and also to email me via that website.

Also trying to post daily here about my other quest: to break my sugar addiction and eliminate all processed foods from my diet, to maximize my nutrition and end my fibro symptoms.

With all of our goals, it all comes down to having unshakable faith (in whatever, yourself, nature, higher power, just FAITH) that you're going to get there. No negative thoughts allowed. I'm trying!

Take care all,
Melissa