jimtoo
06-17-2012, 03:46 PM
Well, I’ve accomplished one thing in my long hiatus from raw foods: I no longer feel the urge to return to my old lifestyle. After developing chronic fatigue and other issues, I struggled for years with no answers, waking every day to the brown bottle flu, as if I’d drank a bottle of whisky and washed it down with a 12-pack of beer. Only I didn’t drink anymore and hadn’t for years. Finally a 30-day raw foods class I took in Chicago ushered the fatigue out the back door (literally). So I thought I could go back to who I was, back to my lattes and scones and hedonistic desires. I’d indulge ravenously and feel like hell, then do another detox to continue the unending cycle of viciousness. Eventually I drifted away to other philosophies: Weston Price with its recipes that never ended, or to a whole foods diet with a Paleo twist, or to the needle-fisted nudges from a TCM acupuncturist (no raw foods for you). So now I’m back (though new to this site). Only I don’t think I’ll set any 100% goals (I’m sort of anti-label – it’s too easy to take on labels as an identity instead of as a discipline, and look down on high from the selected labels horse, if you know what I mean). But I think I’ve finally lost that old identity, too, the one that had to drink beer to be a man and chased after game (in city restaurants) like a wild man descended from the masculine mountains, scalp still intact - Jeremiah Johnson returns to civilization to dine on the finer things in life, over-compensating for all those isolated years. Having said that, and being more motivated than ever, I’m still not sure how raw or vegan I can be…
I won’t go back to my old ways, but know perfection isn’t easy or even a goal. One day at a time, I guess, and we’ll see what happens. Hello from me.
I won’t go back to my old ways, but know perfection isn’t easy or even a goal. One day at a time, I guess, and we’ll see what happens. Hello from me.