obsession with calories

[eatmoveggies]

I have a history of eating disorders... I went from anorexia to binge eating. It has been 2 years now and my binging has lessened but I still have a crazy obsession with counting calories... I'm just wondering if anyone here has a similar experience? how can I trust myself?

[adobegirl]

Wow, I can relate to this very well. I go through periods (especially when I am dealing with too much stress) where I get caught up in the whole weighing and counting thing (I have an eating disorder as well, that has manifested in many forms through the years...). During those times, I have to do a lot (sometimes a whole lot) of self talk.

I found that raw food is what works for me to make that less, but I do still struggle at times (not so much with raw but with ED stuff). During those times, I do eat less nuts and fats, but on raw it passes more quickly (or at least doesn't get worse) than it ever did on a S.A.D. diet.

It might interest you to know that Weight Watchers changed how they do points, from what my friend said. She said now all fruits and vegetables are 0 points. So, in essence, if you were to count calories, almost everything we eat would be 0 points. I thought that was very interesting because I work really hard to not count calories any more and this is evidence to me that I don't need to.

One thing to remember is that eating disorders aren't really about food. It's just a symptom of something much more complicated and deep. As we work through the issues that cause the symptoms, the symptoms (ie. ED behaviors) lessen.

If you ever need an ear, you are welcome to message me. Good luck with your journey. :heart