Giaya
10-13-2005, 08:37 PM
Hi,
Im new to this website but I really wanted to find some people who are maybe in the same boat as me on religion and/or spirituality. I was raised by two loving parents, who were very opened minded in the sense of religion, love, life choices, etc. Growing up I was raised Christian Scientist, which is a religion that basically depends on the power of prayer and does not have a link with the medical society. Gropwing up I experienced not being "the right kind of christian" as what people would put it. I loved my religion and embraced it as who I was and a strong part of my foundation. I gre up around a diversity of people, bi-racial relationships, homosexual partnerships, an extreme variety of religious and spiritual beliefs and the political views were all over the place, up until the age of about twelve I had no idea that what was my norm was different than what other people considered normal and my whole world was shaken. Also at this time I began public school after years of being homeschooled and I could understand why people were so hateful towards one another and liked to speak negitively almost all the time about everything. I got sucked up in this world and found comfort in my true identity deep inside but I was terrified to voice my opinion, feeling like I had to stance in this world of hate and confusion. Years went by and I found myself in the baptist church with a new found friends. I mean no harm to anyone who is baptist, but in this particular church it was all about who was going to hell. And one day when the pator was preaching about homosexual lust and how they were going to hell my dad made us walk out of that church and we did not go back. I had a hard time understanding how my parents always said except and forgive but then walk out of that church and not go back. As an adult I understand but at the time I didnt. As I grew older I found myself in and out of different religions, more of a spiritual view. After I got married and moved to northern Fl. I came to the catholic church and felt a calling. Ive been catholic now for about seven months and again started to question the human opinions that lay on the base of the religion and I feel a deep pain in me body telling me that I love God, the being that lives and creates everything but at the same time I start getting so concerned about following the right way, but what is that and how does anybody go about doing this. I am a firm believer that everybody is loved by God, the all power of everything, whatever that may be for some but when someone says only a few or only certain types of people will go to heaven I start to pull away from who or what is saying this. I just dont understand where I am exactyly on the wordly scale of God but spiritualy I feel loved and with that love I love everybody and all I want to do is accept and appreciate all the different beauty that the High being has created but I always get caught up in all the human-stuff that seems to ruin Gods grace. If this calls to you please write back and tell me your experiences and what you go through with this. I want to feel connected with those who can hear where Im coming from and from those who may feel strongly about their convictions and would like to share and we could find understanding for others and each other.
Giaya :confused:
Im new to this website but I really wanted to find some people who are maybe in the same boat as me on religion and/or spirituality. I was raised by two loving parents, who were very opened minded in the sense of religion, love, life choices, etc. Growing up I was raised Christian Scientist, which is a religion that basically depends on the power of prayer and does not have a link with the medical society. Gropwing up I experienced not being "the right kind of christian" as what people would put it. I loved my religion and embraced it as who I was and a strong part of my foundation. I gre up around a diversity of people, bi-racial relationships, homosexual partnerships, an extreme variety of religious and spiritual beliefs and the political views were all over the place, up until the age of about twelve I had no idea that what was my norm was different than what other people considered normal and my whole world was shaken. Also at this time I began public school after years of being homeschooled and I could understand why people were so hateful towards one another and liked to speak negitively almost all the time about everything. I got sucked up in this world and found comfort in my true identity deep inside but I was terrified to voice my opinion, feeling like I had to stance in this world of hate and confusion. Years went by and I found myself in the baptist church with a new found friends. I mean no harm to anyone who is baptist, but in this particular church it was all about who was going to hell. And one day when the pator was preaching about homosexual lust and how they were going to hell my dad made us walk out of that church and we did not go back. I had a hard time understanding how my parents always said except and forgive but then walk out of that church and not go back. As an adult I understand but at the time I didnt. As I grew older I found myself in and out of different religions, more of a spiritual view. After I got married and moved to northern Fl. I came to the catholic church and felt a calling. Ive been catholic now for about seven months and again started to question the human opinions that lay on the base of the religion and I feel a deep pain in me body telling me that I love God, the being that lives and creates everything but at the same time I start getting so concerned about following the right way, but what is that and how does anybody go about doing this. I am a firm believer that everybody is loved by God, the all power of everything, whatever that may be for some but when someone says only a few or only certain types of people will go to heaven I start to pull away from who or what is saying this. I just dont understand where I am exactyly on the wordly scale of God but spiritualy I feel loved and with that love I love everybody and all I want to do is accept and appreciate all the different beauty that the High being has created but I always get caught up in all the human-stuff that seems to ruin Gods grace. If this calls to you please write back and tell me your experiences and what you go through with this. I want to feel connected with those who can hear where Im coming from and from those who may feel strongly about their convictions and would like to share and we could find understanding for others and each other.
Giaya :confused: