Mindatrisk
11-18-2010, 01:15 PM
I've fallen away this week in a big way. I got a virus on saturday night and was vomiting heavily and since then - because of what I was vomiting back up - I haven't been able to even think about salads and vegetables, and I still do feel almost mentally scarred. Anyway, as I began to be able to feel like I could eat anything again, it wasn't raw vegan that I wanted and for the last week i've been a mixed bag of the odd smoothie, fresh fruit and today, finally, I managed to put together a small salad.
The problem is that as I slipped up everything crumbled. I could understand that maybe because i'd been so ill that a piece of toast would be acceptable in recovery, but it's almost like an old mindset has sprung back up and i've found myself buying a box of fancy chocolates to munch on (chocolate being the one thing i've missed since going raw vegan about 3 months ago).
I have some real work to do. I've set myself this coming monday as the day to start again, and i'm going to focus on getting through to christmas, and then enjoying christmas food before committing to a total raw vegan lifestyle as a new years resolution. I think these last 3 months and the remainder of the year have been a time to learn about the raw vegan lifestyle, and to make mistakes and understand how wonderful the raw vegan diet is, because I have felt absolutely amazing being on the raw food diet.
So, i'm going to take the pressure off for the rest of this year, and just continue to learn and prepare myself for a total adoption in 2011. The other thing is that when I made the raw vegan change a few months ago I also began going to the gym and looking after myself in that way too, and the two disciplines have become very connected for me. Drinking 3 litres of green smoothie after a big workout has been a wonderful enjoyment as my body just absorbs all the goodness, and so I know that going to the gym and maintaining discipline with that will be extremely enabling of the raw veganism.
Anyway, I need to use this site more too. It's great to be able to offload all these thoughts and know i'll only receive encouragement and support, so thank you. I know how amazing the raw vegan lifestyle is, even just from the small sample i've had so far, and I am so excited about a life and future committed to it, but I know that I just need to keep learning, being gentle with myself and expressing my gratitude for the wonders that it gives me.
IN Lak Ech :)
The problem is that as I slipped up everything crumbled. I could understand that maybe because i'd been so ill that a piece of toast would be acceptable in recovery, but it's almost like an old mindset has sprung back up and i've found myself buying a box of fancy chocolates to munch on (chocolate being the one thing i've missed since going raw vegan about 3 months ago).
I have some real work to do. I've set myself this coming monday as the day to start again, and i'm going to focus on getting through to christmas, and then enjoying christmas food before committing to a total raw vegan lifestyle as a new years resolution. I think these last 3 months and the remainder of the year have been a time to learn about the raw vegan lifestyle, and to make mistakes and understand how wonderful the raw vegan diet is, because I have felt absolutely amazing being on the raw food diet.
So, i'm going to take the pressure off for the rest of this year, and just continue to learn and prepare myself for a total adoption in 2011. The other thing is that when I made the raw vegan change a few months ago I also began going to the gym and looking after myself in that way too, and the two disciplines have become very connected for me. Drinking 3 litres of green smoothie after a big workout has been a wonderful enjoyment as my body just absorbs all the goodness, and so I know that going to the gym and maintaining discipline with that will be extremely enabling of the raw veganism.
Anyway, I need to use this site more too. It's great to be able to offload all these thoughts and know i'll only receive encouragement and support, so thank you. I know how amazing the raw vegan lifestyle is, even just from the small sample i've had so far, and I am so excited about a life and future committed to it, but I know that I just need to keep learning, being gentle with myself and expressing my gratitude for the wonders that it gives me.
IN Lak Ech :)