goodbye for now,but i'll be back

[EscapeArtist]

I am going through some hard times and have turned back to binge eating. I lasted awhile there without bingeing, but as I said times have gotten hard, both my father and mother have lost their jobs and I am also broke and cannot afford to heal this disorder with raw foods, though raw foods have been the only thing that have worked to heal this disorder so far! I feel pretty near broken, (especially without the glorious clarity that comes with raw) but raw foods seems far away in the future, right now I have focus on little steps. I'll be back though!

[Cottonball McFluffy]

I feel your pain, believe me, I'm currently unemployed and there's no money to pay bills, so having money enough to buy as much food as I'd need on 100% raw isn't really possible. Having said that... even if you're not 100% raw consider this: binging costs a lot of money. Believe me, I've been there, and the more I think about that period in my life I realise that with the money I used to binge on stuff that was so bad for me in every way, I could have bought something simple and vegan and comforting that would've allowed me to eat enough to function, but not so much I would've needed to purge or feel bad about eating it all and had the need to sleep it off.
So I realise that high stress situations are not the best times to restrict your eating because it escalates so easily, but I do hope you consider what I said. Go for the mung beans and quinoa and millet with coconut milk and spices if you can't go raw. :)

I'm sending you good vibes and strenght. Hope things look better for all of you soon. *hugs*

[Aleesha Sattva]

(((hugs))) to you on your path.

[EscapeArtist]

you're so right cottonball, I hadn't thought of the cost of binges. I'll keep this in mind. I plan to get a job ASAP and come right back to raw. As an extremist, it's one extreme or the other most of the time.
Thanks you guys, take care

[klomasius]

Just wanted to say, from one human being to another, I really hope things get better for you and your family real soon.

Just some helpful stuff, I've done raw on a tight budget before, it can be done, but obviously the budget isn't the only thing wrong, I get that. :)

Do you know much about wild greens or know someone who does? I am really getting into picking my salad greens down by the creek for FREE. I love it and it helps lots budget wise (plus helps with clearing the head and gives me a nice exuces for a walk and time on my own to recharge the battery).

Take care, and remember we are here, even if you can't do all raw, or even high raw, keep that in mind :D

[Dimond]

To realize the cost of binging, keep track of every food purchase. Once you see that, it may help you stop. You can even start implementing rules on what you're allowed to have or not have. Or find an incentive that is large enough to overcome it. Subconscious autosuggestions before sleep or meditation can also help.

[streetsurfer]

Gosh, you're in a tough spot, it sounds. I had a tough week ahead of me a few weeks back, and I decided to fast. I was actually already planning the fast as I got some bad news and things were turned upside down. It turned out to be the best thing for me. I save lots of money on food that week, if that's any consolation to you. I had almost two days of fasting by myself, then met up with other family out of state. By then I was strong enough into my fast that it was easy to go and eat with them and sit peacefully as we (they) dined and talked. That may not be a long term solution for you, but a fast will sure change your perspective on things. It may help you come up with some other better ideas as to how this situation can best be handled.

Resist binging and try to make the wisest food choices you can, considering. You don't have to fall back into old patterns of binging. You'll have other options. A fast may open them up to you.

[nadien alexandra]

hi :)

I just want to say that i empathize with your struggle.
Food is such a big issue in western society and is one way that we materialize/portray/manifest to ourselves, the inner struggle/suffering we are going through.

My whole family struggles with food. I had spent so many years witnessing it in them, in myself, in everyone, and I still do everyday.

I am witnessing it right now in my very close friend who i am trying to heal. He makes excusses for himself everyday on why it's okay to diverge from this path of self-awakening and purification.

I made excuses for myself all the time in the past, on why today it is okay for a bit of cooked food or sugar or alcohol because I'm having a bad day. When things get stressful, we turn on ourselves as a way to deal. Self-sabotage. why is this?

anyway, what I really wanted to say was, I am on the road right now, hitch hiking around Canada and the US, my budget is 0$ to as much as 10$ a day, but rarely is it 10$.

I am totally raw. If I can't eat raw, I won't eat. I refuse to harm my body or cause it any more distress. It does so much from me, carries me everyday. I must respect it.

There are so many ways around a low budget. I go to soup kitchens, food banks, salvation armies, grocery store dumpsters....

Everything is possible. Find that will inside of you. let it speak. :)