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loofah
09-17-2010, 11:50 PM
Hey guys, as my day ends I just wanted to share with you some interesting reactions that I experienced today which may be resulted from my diet of raw foods. I am not entirely sure this can be attributed to my raw food diet but I think it might. About a week ago I started going really heavy on the raw foods, only minimal cooked foods. The past few days I've been nearly 100% raw. What I'm about to share with you is an experience I have never felt in my life.

As my 8th period was nearing an end in school today, I got a note from the office. I opened it up. It read "your car has a flat tire". At first I reacted in a playfully irritated way, like acting mad but not actually mad. Like saying "Oh you've got to be kidding me!" but with a smile. Normally, in a situation like this, I would be stressing out and having thoughts race through my head. Not this time. I acted very calmly about it. As I walked to my car, I felt not anger, stress, or anxiety. I felt contentment. As strange as it sounds I just felt content and realized that getting stressed or angered over it would do me no good. I felt like whatever happens will happen and there's no sense in stressing myself over something I cannot change. This is not normal behavior for me. I approach my car, see that one tire is deflated and discover a sharp piece of metal protruding from it. I called my dad to let him know and he told me to change it out with the spare. Well, I got the spare out and discovered it too was flat. A friend drove me to a nearby gas station where I was able to inflate the tire. A man approached us asking for 50 cents, but all I had was enough to fill the tire, so I politely declined. He understood and showed no resentment. Eventually, I got the tire on and drove home. All the while I felt no feeling of stress, anxiety, or bitterness to the seemingly roadblock of a day. I got home and did something I haven't done for as long as I can remember. I laid in the cool grass looking up at the dusk sky with my dog next to me enjoying the feeling of my hand brush his coat. I just felt one with the earth and with my canine friend. I felt like our consciousnesses were connected and we were part of a connectedness with nature. It was amazing. After awhile I go back inside and relax a bit. I start pondering why I was feeling this way. Often times when I ponder something it sticks in my head and eventually makes its way into the pile of unanswered questions I have asked myself. This feeling was strangely unfamiliar. Despite not knowing the origin of my contentment, I didn't let not knowing 'Why?' get in the why of the experience and essence of it. I had a discussion with a close friend about the phenomenon and he too thought it interesting that I was suddenly relieved of all stress, worry, and anxiety. The feeling is something that is very foreign to me but I was not going to let that fact get in the way of just enjoying it. I had a conversation with my mother about her day at work, something I rarely, if ever do. I usually become agitated when talking with my mother, for reasons I do not know. Talking to her now was like talking to my closest friends. I opened up and talked freely with her. The irritability that would consume me previously when speaking with her was too much to bear. I still do not know where it originated from. All I know is that it has damaged my relationship with my mother. Whether this irritability is caused inadvertently by toxins in my system or by a conscious decision to just be an ass, I sincerely hope that it has disappeared.

Anyway, I hope those of you who've read this far can picture my experience today. I'm curious to know if anyone else has had a similar experience and if this kind of reaction has been known to be caused by a raw diet. Any input is greatly appreciated! Thanks for reading.

Aleesha Sattva
09-18-2010, 12:16 AM
if you don't already have a blog here... you should start one! :)

loofah
09-18-2010, 12:23 AM
if you don't already have a blog here... you should start one! :)

heh, yea. I sort of just discovered that function. I'll try to make time to do that!
Right now I'm pretty busy with college essays which are a real brain drainer but I really needed to share this.

EscapeArtist
09-18-2010, 12:31 AM
I've only been raw for 6 days at a time, but during my short periods of being raw I have experienced the "mysterious contentment", sadly detox began after I experienced it so I didn't get much of it. I remember once, just watching tv with my sister felt .. so.. RIGHT. so comfortable, and somehow I felt we were very connected, like there was no other place I wanted to be, but I felt this way wherever I went!! Another moment filled with a sudden feeling of satisfaction and bliss was laying out in the sun, feeling how smooth my skin is and realizing the possibilities of my body, when I felt my own arm or my own leg, I felt comforted by myself, I felt like I wasn't alone because I had myself, I felt this moment was truly a miracle because it was a very unusual and needed feeling. Now I know what it feels like to a degree, and have something to look forward to in order to go farther than 6 days.

WanderRA
09-18-2010, 05:00 AM
welcome to the miracle of raw eating. :)

Ive been close to tears at times because of the healing ive gone through eating raw.

Ive also felt lower emotions slip away like water of a ducks back.

klomasius
09-18-2010, 08:21 AM
I understand exactly where you're coming from as I am experiencing this in many aspects of my life now.

It's definitely from raw, it's too much of a coincidence that it started when I began my raw journey. At first it was a high euphoric feeling, now it's like a deep contentment, like a river underneath the everyday.

It's like a level up emotionalwise. :)

It keeps getting better and it really assists in your intellectual emotional evolution.

p.s. I like your prose. :)

Dimond
09-18-2010, 10:43 AM
You may want to at least keep a journal for yourself to keep track of any developments so if anything changes you can look back to see what you did and didn't do with your diet & other things. You can keep it very brief without full sentences if you want.

janicejourney
09-22-2010, 02:04 PM
loofah: I just wanted to say, I really enjoyed your post! Thank you. I have been a meditator for 15 years and have had many moments like the ones you are describing. It is really the way things are when we can finally drop the illusion. Keep pondering these things because there are life changing answers in those feelings and questions, and thank you for sharing that beautiful part of yourself!

lowfreq
10-02-2010, 03:58 PM
thank you for sharing! it's beautiful to read something like this..

rawlight
10-02-2010, 05:39 PM
Anyway, I hope those of you who've read this far can picture my experience today. I'm curious to know if anyone else has had a similar experience and if this kind of reaction has been known to be caused by a raw diet. Any input is greatly appreciated! Thanks for reading.

I agree with Aleesha for you to start a blog! School comes first, but maybe you could do it once a week? It may sound sexist, but I think it's wonderful for a young man to open up to feelings like this. We all need to open, of course, but being public about it, I think is important.

It's odd that you should post this, I've just upped my raw to 100%. I've been here before, but can't seem to stay, so I've joined the 30 Day Challenge this month. I was just thinking about this on the way home from visiting my mom this afternoon that one of the first things I notice at 100% is that I am quieter inside: inside my head and inside the rest of my body. Maybe we are used to being hopped up on sugar, caffeine and carbs, that when those things aren't racing through our bodies, this feeling of peaceful connectedness to ourselves and others is common. I also sleep better for just these reasons when I'm raw. So yes, I think it's the raw!!

nadien alexandra
10-02-2010, 07:23 PM
thank you for sharing.

this is no coincidence.

YOU are changing with every change you make. these subtle changes towards inner peace are happening in direct relation to one another. nothing can be isolated. Your desire for change has led you down the path of raw, and so raw eating is just another consequence to a wheel already in motion within you.
Your mood, is another consequence.
The longer I am raw, the more I see the interconnectedness of everything. The more I CAN'T watch television, sit in the house, keep my shoes on all day, let destructive emotions conquer my inner peace.
every day, you will feel more and more peaceful inside and less and less helplessly controlled by external "problems" and negative vibrations.

how beautiful. :)

loofah
10-10-2010, 08:50 PM
Sorry for the delayed response I've been very busy lately. Just wanted to thank everyone for their kind words.

Tulpa
10-11-2010, 07:22 AM
I refer to it as the hum.

It awesome. You will find that word war III will be going on all around you and on the inside you feel content and relaxed like you are at the beach..Only with energy and no sunburn.