Groggy and exhausted bulimic...

[pinkfrankie]

Hello everyone,

I stumbled across this forum today and love it. The before and after pictures especially have really inspired me to take this up.

Have read one book about being raw a while ago and was very impressed with the claims but for some reason it didn't stick. Though I remember how much energy I had by just making small changes to my diet.

I have been bulimic for nearly 11 years and cannot just simply stop and go raw 100%. Am giving this a go though and looking forward to the many changes.

[nadien alexandra]

hey, welcome.

I send lots of love your way, and urge you to really give raw a try.

no more guilt means no more bulimia.

good luck!

[revdrcyn]

I am a recovering bulimic with 22 years of abstinence - the raw lifestyle is the greatest thing that has ever happened to me!

i you ever wanna talk . . .

[CathyA.]

sending out the love to you.

[pinkfrankie]

Thank you so much for the support.

Looks like the start of a whole new life :D

[somelikeitraw]

Hi Pinkfrankie! I really like your tag line!

Recovering bulimic myself. 26 years of abstinence. Raw is incredible!
Alissa Cohen has a great book that can really help you transition to raw. I don't have her DVD's but read on this forum from others about how great they are. The book may seem too pricey but it is worth every penny!

This is a great place for support and there is a ton of info here! Under the banana at the top of the screen is a search feature. There is so much valuable info in archives it boggles the mind!

Welcome aboard!

[spicyfull]

I wish you everything you need to Stay RAW...........Welcome to MY World.

[MPAM]

Hello, I'm very glad to meet you.

Now, after two years eating vegetarian, I eat only raw vegan food for a month and a half, not only as an aid to overcome my problems, but for the conviction that it is the best way to feed. However, I have not yet rid of my anxiety for food (twenty-four years of bulimia without vomiting).

A couple of weeks ago, I started gradually increasing the amount of sweet fruit, the dose of oil in the main meal, more and more nuts, dried tomatos sauce with more and more tomatoes, more and more dry dates and apricots, and then salt, more salt. I realized that was particularly anxious to eat bananas, oranges, dried and fresh tomatoes and olive oil. I suppose they are more intense and savory flavors, and also the most common and the ones I most associate with my days as a child. Now (in the absence of flour, chocolates and pastries), I found some solace for who knows what frustrations. I have psychological problems of which I hope a final healing, but without any more therapists. The truth is that the raw food, at least with food, aids a lot.

The fact is that I've been eating ten or eleven bananas, kilos of oranges and tomatoes with lots of oil and salt in these days..., all in addition to regular meals and considering that my life is sedentary. As you supose, it is not hunger, just anxiety, high anxiety. And yesterday, once more, I got sick because I no longer enjoyed food again, and again I felt swollen with so much sugar and fat (luckily, everything is raw, not so bad as before).

I'm totally in the way of accepting and I do not regret anything. But it is disappointing to realize how I damage my body again and again.

I've been many years trying to get a balance, stability and serenity and feeling those anxiety attacks less strong or less frequent. But I can not, even if raw. What is clear for me is not to eat cooked food again because I know what harmful is it for me (much more addictive).

A thousand times I've fallen and a thousand times I have got up, and so I will follow all I need. Despite my weaknesses and frustrations, I consider myself a strong and determined person, so I have achieved some important things in my life, like becoming raw. So yesterday, one more time, I fasted, to cut the bad habits, and today I start the routine again with renewed hopes. I feel much better now.

The truth is that, apart from my own convictions, it also helps me a lot to read testimonies like yours, because seeing other people with so much enthusiasm with raw food, makes me stronger to overcome those moments of weakness and anxiety.

Thank you very much. And sorry, my english is not good.

[somelikeitraw]

Hello, I'm very glad to meet you.

Now, after two years eating vegetarian, I eat only raw vegan food for a month and a half, not only as an aid to overcome my problems, but for the conviction that it is the best way to feed. However, I have not yet rid of my anxiety for food (twenty-four years of bulimia without vomiting).

A couple of weeks ago, I started gradually increasing the amount of sweet fruit, the dose of oil in the main meal, more and more nuts, dried tomatos sauce with more and more tomatoes, more and more dry dates and apricots, and then salt, more salt. I realized that was particularly anxious to eat bananas, oranges, dried and fresh tomatoes and olive oil. I suppose they are more intense and savory flavors, and also the most common and the ones I most associate with my days as a child. Now (in the absence of flour, chocolates and pastries), I found some solace for who knows what frustrations. I have psychological problems of which I hope a final healing, but without any more therapists. The truth is that the raw food, at least with food, aids a lot.

The fact is that I've been eating ten or eleven bananas, kilos of oranges and tomatoes with lots of oil and salt in these days..., all in addition to regular meals and considering that my life is sedentary. As you supose, it is not hunger, just anxiety, high anxiety. And yesterday, once more, I got sick because I no longer enjoyed food again, and again I felt swollen with so much sugar and fat (luckily, everything is raw, not so bad as before).

I'm totally in the way of accepting and I do not regret anything. But it is disappointing to realize how I damage my body again and again.

I've been many years trying to get a balance, stability and serenity and feeling those anxiety attacks less strong or less frequent. But I can not, even if raw. What is clear for me is not to eat cooked food again because I know what harmful is it for me (much more addictive).

A thousand times I've fallen and a thousand times I have got up, and so I will follow all I need. Despite my weaknesses and frustrations, I consider myself a strong and determined person, so I have achieved some important things in my life, like becoming raw. So yesterday, one more time, I fasted, to cut the bad habits, and today I start the routine again with renewed hopes. I feel much better now.

The truth is that, apart from my own convictions, it also helps me a lot to read testimonies like yours, because seeing other people with so much enthusiasm with raw food, makes me stronger to overcome those moments of weakness and anxiety.

Thank you very much. And sorry, my english is not good.

Hi MPAM, welcome to RFT!
You are very strong and determined! Look at all you have accomplished! I believe in giving your body what it is craving, within the guidelines of being raw. A while back I had several weeks where I couldn't get enough radishes so I ate radishes till I thought I would become one. All of the sudden, my body didn't want them anymore. I believe there was some nutrient in those radishes that my body needed. You mentioned being bloated and eating a lot of salt, are you using sea salt or table salt? Do you have many raw food books? My raw books have helped me a lot.
One of the most important things is to be gentle with yourself and to focus on all of the positives. Eating raw has made this much easier for me. I used to be bulimic, with vomiting and the excessive use of laxatives, many, many years ago. With help from a wonderful counselor I managed to stop doing that to my body. Over the years I put on lots of weight and wanting to get healthy, I found raw. I feel so much better! You indicated that you do too and that's what you have to hold onto. That wonderful feeling. It will help you in your quest to stay raw. Everyone has bad days, you are NOT alone! Raw bad days are better than SAD (standard american diet=cooked food) days. Keep coming back to this site, there is much support for you here.
Hang in there and remember, be gentle and loving with yourself.

[MPAM]

Hello, somelikeitraw. Thank you for your message and especially for your support.

Salt?, of course complete sea salt, or Himalayan crystal salt too, but since I eat raw, I do not need salt any more, only with anxiety.

On the other hand, I know what you mean with the cravings for specific foods, but I've always wanted to binge intense flavors, very greasy or very sweet, and I'm sure my body does not need that, but my frustration and need for consolation, my anxiety.

In fact now that I've cut suddenly and by choice that bad habit with a fast, I feel stable again and the body has not asked me today those flavors in particular.

I think, for example, obese people need only those foods on an emotional level, however physically such food is excessive and harmful.

If I did not have the problem I have, deep anxiety and guilt and frustration, would completely agree with you.