Amii
04-14-2010, 05:52 PM
Hi guys, I'd like your opinions on this please - as many as possible :)
It's a bit long-winded, sorry about that!
So I was just chatting to a GP (not my own, but the lady whose children I babysit is a GP so I was talking to her) and basically I explained to her about a series of symptoms I've been experiencing for the past three years (I remember very clearly when it began).
When I'd finished, she told me she thinks I have OCD (which I had concluded myself previously but wanted her opinion). I then went into more detail and told her a bit more, and then I asked her if I was her patient, what she would say. She said "You have a very strong anxiety problem with OCD tendencies as a secondary issue". So she's basically telling me I have anxiety which has triggered OCD.
We then talked about a specific trauma I'd experienced that I have recently began to suspect triggered this. When I was 12, someone (online.. ugh) threatened to kill themselves if I left them alone. It took me a good few years to not think about it every day, since I never heard from this person again so I never knew if they did commit suicide or not.
I also told her about a much earlier (one-off) time that I'd had a panic feeling that I associate with a compulsion that I can't carry out - someone in my school bringing a dead kitten in to class with them and pushing it into my face. When I got home I showered twice and had to throw my clothes straight into the laundry and I felt contaminated and no amount of washing got rid of that feeling.
Anyway, I've believed these two events triggered my condition, but my condition was silenced for a few years by the following...
Then we moved on to the subject of how I knew I'd been having these symptoms for three years. I knew it had started when I was 15 because I remember my first panic attack over one of my obsessions happening the week before prom. I told her that around that time I had hit my head multiple times on the pavement in one night and after that I noticed the obsessions/compulsions and anxiety coming in thick and fast, and very very sudden. I only very recently started to suspect there was a link between the two, because before I had thought this:
All my life I was painting and drawing every single day. In high school, on top of this I played music in a couple of bands and sang, I attended drama club frequently and I wrote short stories constantly.
When I finished year 11 everything stopped abruptly. I only occasionally did any writing.
No less than a month after this occurred was another obsessive panic attack. It lasted a week, and then faded away. Then came the head bumping incident, after which the anxiety/obsessive/compulsive stuff began very abruptly, and on a wide range of topics. I should point out that I did not make a connection between the two at the time, so the only thing I continued with was my writing and I even began to find that less fun. In hindsight, I see a big link.
My symptoms have not wavered in the three years since they began.
I think being on a high raw diet recently has given me some insight and I am wondering whether I am right in drawing a connection to the decline in creative expression, and developing these symptoms. The head bumping, also.
I would really love to hear your thoughts on this. I don't care if you're not a doctor, just your opinion would be very interesting. Thanks and love to you all! :)
It's a bit long-winded, sorry about that!
So I was just chatting to a GP (not my own, but the lady whose children I babysit is a GP so I was talking to her) and basically I explained to her about a series of symptoms I've been experiencing for the past three years (I remember very clearly when it began).
When I'd finished, she told me she thinks I have OCD (which I had concluded myself previously but wanted her opinion). I then went into more detail and told her a bit more, and then I asked her if I was her patient, what she would say. She said "You have a very strong anxiety problem with OCD tendencies as a secondary issue". So she's basically telling me I have anxiety which has triggered OCD.
We then talked about a specific trauma I'd experienced that I have recently began to suspect triggered this. When I was 12, someone (online.. ugh) threatened to kill themselves if I left them alone. It took me a good few years to not think about it every day, since I never heard from this person again so I never knew if they did commit suicide or not.
I also told her about a much earlier (one-off) time that I'd had a panic feeling that I associate with a compulsion that I can't carry out - someone in my school bringing a dead kitten in to class with them and pushing it into my face. When I got home I showered twice and had to throw my clothes straight into the laundry and I felt contaminated and no amount of washing got rid of that feeling.
Anyway, I've believed these two events triggered my condition, but my condition was silenced for a few years by the following...
Then we moved on to the subject of how I knew I'd been having these symptoms for three years. I knew it had started when I was 15 because I remember my first panic attack over one of my obsessions happening the week before prom. I told her that around that time I had hit my head multiple times on the pavement in one night and after that I noticed the obsessions/compulsions and anxiety coming in thick and fast, and very very sudden. I only very recently started to suspect there was a link between the two, because before I had thought this:
All my life I was painting and drawing every single day. In high school, on top of this I played music in a couple of bands and sang, I attended drama club frequently and I wrote short stories constantly.
When I finished year 11 everything stopped abruptly. I only occasionally did any writing.
No less than a month after this occurred was another obsessive panic attack. It lasted a week, and then faded away. Then came the head bumping incident, after which the anxiety/obsessive/compulsive stuff began very abruptly, and on a wide range of topics. I should point out that I did not make a connection between the two at the time, so the only thing I continued with was my writing and I even began to find that less fun. In hindsight, I see a big link.
My symptoms have not wavered in the three years since they began.
I think being on a high raw diet recently has given me some insight and I am wondering whether I am right in drawing a connection to the decline in creative expression, and developing these symptoms. The head bumping, also.
I would really love to hear your thoughts on this. I don't care if you're not a doctor, just your opinion would be very interesting. Thanks and love to you all! :)