Cashew
03-17-2010, 08:09 PM
Hi all!
Being raw is not new to me - I was raw for 6 months from Feb 2006 thru July 2006. In fact, those of you who were on this site waaay back then may remember me - I was/am Apples'nAvos. For various reasons, I've decided to post under a new username (I hope I'm not breaking any rules!).
Anyway, I LOVED being raw and dove in headfirst, but 5 months in to it, my ex-husband and I separated, I went through a nasty divorce followed by a very unhealthy relationship pretty soon after that that resulted in a restraining order (against the other person). Just after the minor details of the separation were settled, I stopped eating raw and went back to cooked food. And, well, 4 years later, here I am. :)
What made me go raw again? Well, it's been an incredibly intense 4 years and I finally feel in a place where I WANT to be raw again. 3 years ago, I gained about 30-35lbs back on a SAD diet and have been trying DESPERATELY for the past 2 years to lose those gained pounds - from Weight Watchers to trying to simply listen to what my body wanted, but no luck, and I was getting incredibly frustrated.
Then, on Saturday night I had a dream, and in the dream I was at the grocery store shopping for vegetables. In the dream, I was raw again and had this incredibly happy feeling. It's difficult to describe, but I was HAPPY! And in the dream, I was telling myself "yes, you CAN do it again. It IS do-able!" When I woke up, I felt sad that I wasn't raw, and I remembered how great I felt when I was raw. I began thinking about it, and then decided that I will go raw again. And here I am - day 3 in :)
I'm a little nervous about the permanence of it, but try not to think about it too much, just deal with the 'here and now'.
Being raw is not new to me - I was raw for 6 months from Feb 2006 thru July 2006. In fact, those of you who were on this site waaay back then may remember me - I was/am Apples'nAvos. For various reasons, I've decided to post under a new username (I hope I'm not breaking any rules!).
Anyway, I LOVED being raw and dove in headfirst, but 5 months in to it, my ex-husband and I separated, I went through a nasty divorce followed by a very unhealthy relationship pretty soon after that that resulted in a restraining order (against the other person). Just after the minor details of the separation were settled, I stopped eating raw and went back to cooked food. And, well, 4 years later, here I am. :)
What made me go raw again? Well, it's been an incredibly intense 4 years and I finally feel in a place where I WANT to be raw again. 3 years ago, I gained about 30-35lbs back on a SAD diet and have been trying DESPERATELY for the past 2 years to lose those gained pounds - from Weight Watchers to trying to simply listen to what my body wanted, but no luck, and I was getting incredibly frustrated.
Then, on Saturday night I had a dream, and in the dream I was at the grocery store shopping for vegetables. In the dream, I was raw again and had this incredibly happy feeling. It's difficult to describe, but I was HAPPY! And in the dream, I was telling myself "yes, you CAN do it again. It IS do-able!" When I woke up, I felt sad that I wasn't raw, and I remembered how great I felt when I was raw. I began thinking about it, and then decided that I will go raw again. And here I am - day 3 in :)
I'm a little nervous about the permanence of it, but try not to think about it too much, just deal with the 'here and now'.