I messed up!

[Rawma]

I just need to be honest. I started "raw" 13 days ago and I my transisition was so smooth that I really thought I was doing something wrong. My only concern was that I have not lost any weight. I did drop a few pounds before we left for our vacation this weekend which I managed to stay raw with the exception of 2 martinis (I said I was being honest!). I felt bad about the martinis but I am moving on. I felt better after reading everyone else's experiences going raw and I know it's live and learn! I realize that there will be mistakes but I am human.
I appreciate all of yur honest journaling...it really helps!
Lisa

[sweetgoddess]

Hey Lisa. I am glad you moved on. It was a really good experience for you.
This used to happen to me an awful lot!! And I remember Alissa saying to me , "It's about persistence, not perfection."

This is so so so so so true! Just keep that in mind.
I have been persisting for 8 months now. Many moves and "slipbacks" in there. I have lost a lot of weight, changed my sleep habits, got rid of chronic pain, pms, emotional swings and an "incurable" disease, gained so much energy and a new, clearer mental realm. Because of the persistence, not the perfection!

And I am not done-it's definitely a process.
I have found that you move to new stages. I just did recently, and cooked food isnt even a thought, ever. This is new and exciting. Walking through the grocery store, I dont even see other food, or think of it. It's like its not even food. This is freedom!

I am glad you love what you are doing, because that will help you persist.
You are doing wonderfully. So many changes to come. Moments like you had are a valuable learning tool if taken in the right light.

Have you thought of giving up the drinks? It is possible that in itself will move you to a new level. Just a thought.

You are doing wonderfully!
Cheers~

[ReneeSC]

I'm trying to remember whose journal it was I was reading through at the time - .... but they mentioned when they were beginning this new walk, they too were tempted and succombed to them a few times. That temptation led to want to quit and start all over again..

sorta like when we were children.. "Naw.. Do-Over.. Do-OVER!"

I had the exact same thing happen to me. I went into transition in mid-August. I started full-raw on September first. September 2, was a large banquet I didn't know I was attending until I GOT THERE!

Sunday: was a huge, planned BBQ with 500 other people. Thank goodness I thought to bring MY sort of raw food. Not only did I eat ( only! ) that, but they scarfed it down as well. Victory!

Until that night, when playing board games - I did dip some organic puff somethingorothers in my fresh quacamole.

Although I felt good, and I've made MUCH PROGRESS.. I still felt like I wanted to take the more childish approach and say.. "Naw! Do-OVER!"

I was reminded that THIS IS NOT NECESSARY. Be honest with yourself - be honest with what happened - revisit your resolve, and keep going. There are more good things ahead for all of us.

Keep telling yourself you ARE STILL RAW foodist, because you are!

For me, there is no going back; there's nothing to go back _to_ except the reasons why I _left there_ in the first place.

Besides, Hon, it's just FOOD - and - within the span of your entire life - such a tiny amount. Feel no guilt. Go on with your "bad self" ( lol ) - join the rest of us on the September Challenge

[Jamie]

Lisa,
Spend some time reading people's journals.. you'll be comforted by the fact that you are NOT ALONE!!!! It is totally a process. I have been on this journey for several years and still trying to get it down to 100%....

That you want to try is great, and that you are posting on this board looking for encouragement is wonderful! Keep up the great work and you'll get more and more towards your goal...

Don't be to hard on yourself, and thanks for being honest....

Blessings,
Jamie :)

[Punky]

Lisa,
SweetGoddess gave such excellant advice and put it so wonderfully.
We all have setbacks and triggers, that is part of the process.
I can totally relate to you about the drinks and alcohal.
From *my* experience, I can NOT lose weight if I continue to drink regularly; even if it's just a glass or two of wine a night....but that's me.
Even though wine is raw it holds me back with weight loss and is a trigger
for me that often leads me to binging on cooked food.
I too love martini's all too much. I had a setback this weekend with drinking and eating cooked food. But it was my husbands birthday, so I intentionally
set that time aside to enjoy with him-knowing I will not be losing any weight. I think it's all about balance
for me with cocktails and being raw. Drinking is a very personal choice.
For me I've decided while I am actively raw and trying to lose wieght I will curtail happy hour except on special occassions. My anniversary is coming up so I will drink some champagne for example. What I do is no means what
I think you should do. You need to follow your own path on what is right for you...I was just letting you know what works for ME ;)

[Rawma]

You all are so wonderful and supportive! I just knew you would make me see that I didn't mess-up and it is a wonderful journey.
I will continue to read the journals of others also, as Jamie suggested to keep me focused on this wonderful journey. Thank you all so much for your support!
Lisa