View Full Version : I slipped up big time
09-01-2005, 08:18 PM
I feel horrible mentally about myself. It was 120+ days raw with tiny slip ups like olives on a salad bar or something. Today was the killer though. This old familar urge came over me (at the salad bar lol) and I just started putting olives, peppers (canned most likely), beets, 3 bean salad, chick peas, and kidney beans. I devoured it really fast and couldn't wait to get home and binge on more cooked foods. That's exactly waht I did :( I had black beans, pinto beans, black eyed peas all out of the cans (not all of each can), cooked mushrooms, and ratitoulli (sp?) my mom made. I think I was craving protein, but I feel just...gross. I know that I'll wake up extremely puffy tomorrow and I deserve it. Tomorrow I need to fast to get this crap out of my system.
09-01-2005, 08:23 PM
Oh my...PLEEEESE don't be so hard on yourself!
I think you could have made MUCH worse choices...those weren't that bad. But try not to be so tough on yourself and don't dwell on it...just pick up where you left off and I know sometimes that is easier said than done once you "awaken the sleeping giant". But you can do it.
Tomorrow's a new day!
09-01-2005, 08:27 PM
I agree with Rawkinlocs. I thought you were going to say you ate a bunch of pizza and cookies and such. You didn't do bad at all I don't think. I'm only 2 weeks raw, but if I ever slip up, I hope I make better choices like you did. Tomorrow's another day........
09-01-2005, 08:44 PM
You Rock ,are you kidding 120 days Raw!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I haven't even gotten through a few days.........How rawsome are You!!!!!
People make mistakes thats why the pencil has an eraser, typewriters have white out, and computers have delete (or backspace)
View it as a celebration and the sick feeling is there to let you know how far you have come.
09-01-2005, 08:49 PM
120 days is great!!!!
So you had some cooked,, ,it was a good choice of cooked at least! I usually go pizza and ice cream!!!!
So wake up tomorrow and start the Sept. Challenge with us!!! Sounds like it will be you encouraging all of us,, 120 days raw.. wow,, that's wonderful.. You should be proud of yourself!!
09-01-2005, 09:38 PM
I agree with the others... don't beat yourself up! (Just ignore my previous post where I did it myself! :D ) I can't wait until I reach 120 days raw... I am only 5 days at 100% right now! I can only pray that if I decide to "slip up" that I make wise decisions, which it sounds like you did - even though it made you feel horrible!
Tomorrow is a new day (which everyone reminds me!!)...it will be what you make it!
09-01-2005, 11:01 PM
Ditto, ditto, ditto.
Please, do not fast after an event like this. :) It can easily become an obsession and mental guilt trip and you are far to beautiful to abuse yourself like that.
Guess what... you are a human being. We all cheat. We all hide things. We all break our word to ourselves. What's important is that you did tell the truth and are courageous enough to put yourself back in the game. Good job for not pretending you have it all together and are perfect. The gift of this whole thing is that you get to experience all of this as the impact of your choice to eat cooked food. How you felt while you were doing it, your mind taking over your body and heart, badgered your spirit afterwards...feeling guilty...how's that goin' for ya? ;)
Sometimes I try to keep that 'pain' close to me as a reminder of what choices lead me downhill.
Welcome back ;)
09-01-2005, 11:45 PM
...'Nuff said. :cool:
09-02-2005, 01:28 AM
You are in such a good place.
CONGRATULATIONS ON 120 DAYS RAW !!!!
you are rawsome yes!!!
Please realize that slipping up happens, and it has happened, so now you can move on, knowing what can happen.
Know that we've been there and done that too, so we are all with you, ready to help support you, and knowing that you will be there to help support us when we slip up.
This board needs people like you, we are so glad you are here.
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