Heartstrings

[rawrawks]

My heart feels like it broke tonight. I had a nanny job for over three years and they had to let me go due to finances. Today was my last day.

I am in celebratory mode as far as my future and being free to make a new way for myself. And there is soooo much to be grateful for. I am not discounting that at all.

However, my heartstrings are in pain over the loss of these two sweet boys as I walked away at 6 tonight.. Raw heart, raw love, raw pain. Ouchy.

[LotsaRaw]

{{{{hugs}}}}

[rawrawks]

Thankx...I love hugs.

[margoss]

maybe you can sit for an occasional 'date night' or just take them to the park. I'm sure they would let you have some time with them, it's probably hard on the kids too.

[katchmoleen]

I cannot imagine. I'm so sorry. I hope you can find a way to still be in their lives.

[rawrawks]

Yes we will see each other. It was money that parted us, not anything bad. We will be so happy to see each other. It IS for the best. Thank you for your comfort.

[rawrawks]

I cannot imagine. I'm so sorry. I hope you can find a way to still be in their lives.

My heart hurts so much. They are like my own. I can see them and do stuff with them. You know though, life gets busy (with a new job etc) and theirs too. Hope we make it priority.

[rawrawks]

Just got this email form the mom...was nice to hear....

"We feel terribly tonight as well. We truly appreciate the love, energy, spontaneity, and creativity that you demonstrated to the boys. There really is no other caretaker like you and you could never be replaced because you are so individualistic. We will definitely be in touch and see one another; this is not goodbye. We will make sure that you stay in touch. You have been a part of our lives for 3 1/2 years, and we are grateful for that and we love you. Talk to you soon.

Love, Me"

awwwwwwww miss em sooooo much

[D'vorah]

Awww. Sweetie, I'm so sad for you. Hugs,

Deborah

[freshlight]

Lots of BIG ((((HUGS)))). I hope you'll be able to keep seeing each other regularly. Take care!

[Veganforlife]

Bummer.

Same thing happened to my daughter who was watching twin girls since 8 weeks old. They turned 3 two days after the Mom pulled them from her care. However, THIS Mom has not kept in touch. Sad part too is my dtr. has a little girl (4 years old) who viewed these girls as sisters.

Something good ALWAYS comes out of pain. My dtr. is now going back to school to get her teaching degree. THAT she could not have done had she still been watching the twins.

Something good will come to you as well.

The only thing permanent is change.

[Moretta]

Sending <<<<<<<hugs>>>>>>>> your way. What a beautiful email you got from them, how touching.

[rawrawks]

Thank you all. VFL. I KNOW beyond a shadow of a doubt (as they say,who are "they" anyway..hahahaha) that this is a whole brand new world for me.

My mind is in the healing and grieving process. This morning seeking tomakes sense of it....hah best in that right? As in wondering why I wasnt offered part time that was pieced out to to others (unless they are all doing it free maybe). And how I was so abruptly let go.

If you read email above, and it is sincere and in honesty for her, then it is what it is. There were other things that made me wonder a bit. Becuase I am who I am, a highly sensitive person, I pic up on , not just whats happening but whats happening in all the sidelines too.

Say if their was other things in their life, say trust challenges or whatever, this was easy to have this money situation close me out.

Their is no sense getting all caught up in thought of it all. It is what it is. I have been set free and can now pursue what I want to do.

In the menatime unfort, my stomach is torn up.....burning and I am in agony internally . Eeeeeeek.