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09-13-2009, 11:32 AM
So I posted about my bladder infection or whatever it might be..I see it as a purging or whatever.
My liver griping seems to be related to anxiety and anger. eeek
But as I have been looking at it I am seeing where it stemmed.
Now in Louise Hays book "You Can Heal Your Life" I saw where bladder challenges stem from being pissed off.
So was seeing where that might be true for me.
One thing is, as a result of tax stuff and solving some, I had to contact a person from a past realtionship. This seemed to raise some issues for me. Feelings of upsetness I suppose. And familiar remnders that nothing has changed wth him and the very same things that bugged me were an issue again. (Patience is a virtue...so I wait for an answer to a question I asked him, which I did for thirty years!).
Also had a challenge at my work. Cant say what because I do not want to post it publicly in case they read...haha.
Anyway keep seeing where I am so out of sync with these folks. On so many levels. So in the ol "in ths economy" mentality, I guess I fear looking for something else, needing a certain amount to pay my bills and hoping i could meet those.
Or do I see what value I have there and stay. Its a long story and hard to put it all here. For the value I impart to the lil ones, its worth it to handle the parents and all that brings. Yet how great if had a job that was congruent and authentic to me and who I am and what I want.
Like staying for the lil ones and my love for them and all I impart in the way of out of the box thinking. Or moving on to something that fullfills me on a deeper level????
So this is what came up for me in looking into the stem of my unwellness today. To me, there is ALWAYS an emotional/mental component to unwellness.
Recent events with them has created some of these feelings. I see in Lousies book just now...reading my symptoms, the source is not being able to say what I want to say, hearing things I dont want to hear and anger. Eeeeek. I see where all of this is what I have been feeling and unable to get a grip on.
There is a corresponding message of how to think so as to resolves these....with peaceful and lovng thoughts.
As always, all of you are such a source of encouragement and support and i look forward to hearing what your thoughts are.
My liver griping seems to be related to anxiety and anger. eeek
But as I have been looking at it I am seeing where it stemmed.
Now in Louise Hays book "You Can Heal Your Life" I saw where bladder challenges stem from being pissed off.
So was seeing where that might be true for me.
One thing is, as a result of tax stuff and solving some, I had to contact a person from a past realtionship. This seemed to raise some issues for me. Feelings of upsetness I suppose. And familiar remnders that nothing has changed wth him and the very same things that bugged me were an issue again. (Patience is a virtue...so I wait for an answer to a question I asked him, which I did for thirty years!).
Also had a challenge at my work. Cant say what because I do not want to post it publicly in case they read...haha.
Anyway keep seeing where I am so out of sync with these folks. On so many levels. So in the ol "in ths economy" mentality, I guess I fear looking for something else, needing a certain amount to pay my bills and hoping i could meet those.
Or do I see what value I have there and stay. Its a long story and hard to put it all here. For the value I impart to the lil ones, its worth it to handle the parents and all that brings. Yet how great if had a job that was congruent and authentic to me and who I am and what I want.
Like staying for the lil ones and my love for them and all I impart in the way of out of the box thinking. Or moving on to something that fullfills me on a deeper level????
So this is what came up for me in looking into the stem of my unwellness today. To me, there is ALWAYS an emotional/mental component to unwellness.
Recent events with them has created some of these feelings. I see in Lousies book just now...reading my symptoms, the source is not being able to say what I want to say, hearing things I dont want to hear and anger. Eeeeek. I see where all of this is what I have been feeling and unable to get a grip on.
There is a corresponding message of how to think so as to resolves these....with peaceful and lovng thoughts.
As always, all of you are such a source of encouragement and support and i look forward to hearing what your thoughts are.