New..again..from Tennessee

[rawsomegirl]

Hello all,

I was here for a short time back in 2006, off and on, when I was raw for about 3 months. Since that time, I went back to work, fell away from the raw food lifestyle, had a baby and gained back every bit of weight that I had lost. Worse than that, my health is worse than before. I have about 100+ lbs to lose (not sure exactly what I am supposed to weight as I have been overweight for most of my adult life).
I love raw because I just feel more alive when I eat this way. I do find it difficult to stick with it due to cooking for kids and a husband every night, but I plan to work through that, one day at a time. My current plan is to cook and freeze meals, so that I dont have to be around SAD food every single day. They can just take it out of the freezer and microwave it!

My current stats are that I weight in at 263lbs, am 36 years old (feel 60), have 3 kids, and am a stay at home mom. Although I dont have any degenerative diseases yet, I know that I am well on my way. My feet hurt terribly when I walk, I can hardly keep up with my 2 year old and I am just miserable for the most part. Not only physically, but mentally and psychologically I am a mess from the weight too. I have harbored alot of self hate over the years. Low self worth as well.

I will be joining in on the 30-day raw challenge for September and hope to be able to get back to feeling better and having more energy. I am limited in my internet, so I may not to get to post every single day, but I will be writing a journal in microsoft word and posting it each time I do have access to the internet.
My other goal for the 30-day challenge is to be able to get back into a pair of jeans that I wore last fall, at about 20lbs less than what I am now. Otherwise I will have to buy more pants, and I really do not want to do that.
I also want to rid myself of my food addictions. I know it wont be easy, so I am just going to take it one day at a time.

Nicole in TN

CW 263
GW 150-160

[revdrcyn]

Hi Nicole,

Nashville is my birthplace -- great town!

I'm gonna do the 30-day challenge too. I've been raw 22 days and already feel fantastic.

Welcome to RFT!

[spicyfull]

I wish you everything you need to Stay RAW........Welcome to MY World.

[dorcas]

Nicole,
I think I remember you from when I was here before in 2007. Were you here then? Your username sounds familiar. One thing that got me away from the forums that may have also affected you was the change of everything in the forums. I was so confused and I just didn't want to tackle learning it. Did that happen to you? I was pleasantly surprised that my information was still here. It had been so long, I had forgotten even my username. Ha!

I am so where you are - I have gained back what I had lost. I have about 100pounds to lose. I had lost 50ish and gained it back. There's a lot of shame in just that when you're around your friends. They still love you, but you just know they wish you hadn't gained it back, and they just don't know what to say so they say nothing unless you do first. At least, that's how I have seen it.

The self-hatred (which I have, too much of the time) may just be related to the lack of proper nutrients more than it is to failures. I think that's at least partly it. We are good people, aren't we, Nicole? We just see where we "coulda" done so much better in so many situations. It's hard for me to get motivated because of it. "Will I fail again"? We must banish these feelings and begin again. I have a copy of "Simply Abundance" (right title?) and the author says on Sept 1, that this is the best time of year to start again. Hurray! Here we are! Starting over and looking toward success.

I am also joining the 30 day challenge, and I have serious doubts about myself, but I'm just going to look at today and let tomorrow worry about itself. I think that's the only way I can do it. We are neighbors - I live in Arkansas and close enough to Memphis that we use that airport probably more than the Little Rock one. (My daughters, that is, I rarely fly).

I hope I haven't overstepped this welcome thread - maybe I've chatted too much. Welcome, Nicole. See you on the monthly challenge thread!

[rawsomegirl]

Hi Sharon,

You sound familiar too! I was surprized that my info was here too. Well, in 2007 I was pregnant and pretty much just let that be my excuse to eat whatever I wanted. I was here more in 2006.
I look forward to seeing you in the 30 day challenge! Lets try to erase our self doubts and for once try believeing in ourselves. Im giving it my all, and sometimes I may even have to "fake it til I make it!"

Lets do this!! :)
Nicole

[MiahTay]

Nicole,
Welcome and I look forward to spending the month with you in the 30 day challenge.

Blessings,
Heather

[BethMO]

Seems like alot of prodigials are returning, this just shows you how much the raw food way is THE way because if it was not people would not be coming back but we know we feel better are not weighed down with cooked "food" and it makes us feel GOOD! So like the Kotter show used to say Welcome Back!

[Veganforlife]

Welcome back!