kidkid
08-02-2009, 06:24 PM
I'm really really sick of it. And I had a moment today where i was mired in guilt again, and i just said enough!
I had eaten in a way that i knew was too indulgent and would cause me to feel ill. And afterward I was just ill and depressed and feeling guilty and hearing the little voices in my head rattle off their negativity. And as i was taking a walk, it just sort of came to me, "do i have this stomach ache because of what I ate or because i feel guilty about it?" and just like that, the stomach ache got a lot less worse. I realized FOR REAL how that particular negative emotion affects my body. It's worse than any cooked or processed food. It makes me feel physically sick. It's toxic! It only compounds any damage i could have done to myself, which wasn't very much to begin with.
Bottom line is i care about my health and i'm doing a really good job taking care of myself. and i am so done with this guilt thing.
I had eaten in a way that i knew was too indulgent and would cause me to feel ill. And afterward I was just ill and depressed and feeling guilty and hearing the little voices in my head rattle off their negativity. And as i was taking a walk, it just sort of came to me, "do i have this stomach ache because of what I ate or because i feel guilty about it?" and just like that, the stomach ache got a lot less worse. I realized FOR REAL how that particular negative emotion affects my body. It's worse than any cooked or processed food. It makes me feel physically sick. It's toxic! It only compounds any damage i could have done to myself, which wasn't very much to begin with.
Bottom line is i care about my health and i'm doing a really good job taking care of myself. and i am so done with this guilt thing.