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06-09-2009, 09:27 PM
I think the title is a Michael Jackson song? anywho..
im sick tonight. really sick. and you know what? i have a new look at the way im feeling. i brought it on MYSELF. i been HIGH raw for about 7 days and today, just like always, i caved. i KNEW i was ruining it. i knew that my craving was bad and that i was going to make myself ill, again.
and i did it anyway. i did it to ME. no one else did it. it was me. i know i feel so good when i eat raw. i KNOW when i stumble i set myself back, i make myself sick, and i feel so terrible inside and inside my head.
so i cant come in here and P&M anymore. i just have to suck it up and admit it. you brought it on yourself boy...deal with it....
ok, im done.
06-09-2009, 09:39 PM
Hey there Matthew.
I messed up yesterday as well and it was mainly because of a negative attitude that came to me all of a sudden and I just stopped caring. When I realized that I was intentionally trying to hurt myself, I didn't get mad, but instead noted what I should do next time. I really need to start feeding myself with positivity and sensitivity, because me falling off was an emotional issue and nothing else.
Please don't be hard on yourself, but ask why you did it, and get to the bottom of it to try and fix it. This journey is very difficult but worth it--so please be good to you; that's what raw foods is about!! It makes no sense to beat yourself up when you fall.
06-09-2009, 10:16 PM
You don't fail until you give up. Keep up the good work and don't fret over the slight setbacks. In the grand scheme of things in our lives we are always taking two steps forward and one back, you're still one step ahead. keep on keeping on my friend!!!! Don't give up just start in on it again today. This just makes you stronger for the next try!!;)
06-09-2009, 10:23 PM
I think you're looking at this backward. You were High Raw for 7 DAYS!!! That's a great accomplishment and you should be proud. We all have our days and we learn from them. Please, be kind to yourself. Take this experience and draw on it every time you're tempted to veer off course in the future. This could be a very pivotal day for you, as the memory of how you feel right now can serve you well, if you allow it, likely preventing you from repeating this experience.
06-09-2009, 10:28 PM
Hey Matt check this out, it's very appropriate
06-10-2009, 12:09 AM
chin up bucko!
I too am sick and I haven't strayed, I must say it knocked my socks off with surprise! I haven't been sick in years!
Though we are currently living in the swine flu capital of the world and there are some NASTY powerful bugs hanging round at the moment (doesn't help that it's winter either). I should have realised when my son got sick that I might get sick too, he's been sick maybe 4 times in his life (he's 8) and most were pretty mild, like colds.
So pick yourself up and dust yourself off! Being sick has taught me some valuable lessons:
* Food alone cannot keep me completely healthy (Yes, I HAVE to exercise! :()
* Significant amounts of stress WILL affect my body's health (even on a raw diet).
* I need to do more work on cultivating a more positive mindset.
What valuable lessons we learn in our vulnerability!
06-10-2009, 01:23 AM
slip ups are part of the deal. I think most (if not all of us) have had them. You do learn from them. That's what will keep you from doing it again. Eventually you will get such a reaction that you will truly not want to do it. Like me..I used to slip up on bread. Bread was my downfall. Now if I have bread..I will get and instant headache for 24 hours. But when I first started I had bread every once and awhile. I noticed it make me more tired and I wanted to go home and take a nap. But I was at work and couldn't go home. So that made me stop at the time. I do think it's a part of the process and a necessary part of the transition. You are doing a great job because you didn't let the slip up take over. A few times I would let the slip ups take over and I would go off raw. I had to get back on green smoothies and fresh juice to bring me back. You will learn little tricks that help you stay on the raw path.
06-10-2009, 02:53 AM
I just want to know........WHAT DID YOU EAT?
06-10-2009, 07:35 AM
I just want to know........WHAT DID YOU EAT?
Pizza. It was vegan. All veggie topping no cheese but I gorged it all. Today is a new day!
06-10-2009, 08:19 AM
Thanks for the "It Happens" song, Redrocket. :) Bucked my morning up no end.
Thanks others for words of wisdom. :)
Anyway, Jehote, I nibbled on those cashews [raw] last week, and am still having allergic symptoms. Just had the "prove it to myself" mindset. "Maybe I can do it this time." <G>
Laughing with [not at] myself helps! Just part of being human, part of giving it all up.
I think I could benefit from intentionally adding some positive self-talk about going raw and being healthy. A good habit to build.
06-10-2009, 12:12 PM
Stop beating yourself up about it.
For me, when I have slipped it's because I've been feeling that raw high and you know what? I just don't know what to do with it. None of my friends or work colleagues are at the high energy state that I am. In the past I've eaten something that would bring that energy right back down. Then I've felt rubbish and like a failure.
Now I notice that this is where I've been going wrong.
I ensure I have something to focus my energy on. Exercise, piano playing, reading, meditating, starting a new business idea or working on an existing on.
I made a promise to myself that when I next felt that raw high I would focus my energy on one of the above things.
Guess what? It's worked. I have so many ideas right now about so many things and I'm focussing on them, exploring them and evolving them. I don't feel like I want to slip up at all because I've found an outlet for that raw high energy.
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