RawkinOnSunshine
03-26-2009, 06:07 PM
Hey all. I've been lurking here for a while and finally decided to join...I know being surrounding by support and info about raw benefits will help me stick with it.
I'm 19, 20 next month. I've suffered with eating disorders for as long as I can remember. Around age 8 I developed compulsive over eating and began hoarding and hiding food...my parents used junk to appease me when I "whined" so I always used it to comfort myself I guess. Also grew up in a chaotic not always friendly environment which may have triggered some issues. Anyway I went on this way until I was about 14, at which point I developed anorexia nervosa and lived for years as a depressed, drug addicted, malnutritioned bag of bones. Bulimia came next. I did some scattered research pertaining to recovery and discovered lots of praise for raw. At that point I felt nothing would ever cure me and was determined to push on until I finally killed myself.
A few months ago I started trying hard to recover. Some symptoms subsided but I was still terrified and uncomfortable around food. I did not enjoy it, and had many panicked relapses...Then I remembered RAW. I've been vegetarian since age 14 and vegan a few times (albeit briefly) over the years, so I thought "I can DO this".
So a week ago I took the plunge. Surprisingly I've had few slip ups and feel much better already - and that's just one week! More importantly, for the first time in my memory I am looking at food as nourishment rather than the devil. For the first time I ENJOY food. I still have many many moments of nervousness and fear but I can talk myself through them much more easily.
I still smoke and that's something I'm not quite ready to give up yet. But in time, maybe that will go too.
Now the biggest factor that pushed me to go raw - the ability to live longer, so that I can be here for my African Grey's full lifespan:
http://photos-d.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-snc1/hs029.snc1/2656_63008752395_503207395_2063283_8191995_n.jpg
I'm 19, 20 next month. I've suffered with eating disorders for as long as I can remember. Around age 8 I developed compulsive over eating and began hoarding and hiding food...my parents used junk to appease me when I "whined" so I always used it to comfort myself I guess. Also grew up in a chaotic not always friendly environment which may have triggered some issues. Anyway I went on this way until I was about 14, at which point I developed anorexia nervosa and lived for years as a depressed, drug addicted, malnutritioned bag of bones. Bulimia came next. I did some scattered research pertaining to recovery and discovered lots of praise for raw. At that point I felt nothing would ever cure me and was determined to push on until I finally killed myself.
A few months ago I started trying hard to recover. Some symptoms subsided but I was still terrified and uncomfortable around food. I did not enjoy it, and had many panicked relapses...Then I remembered RAW. I've been vegetarian since age 14 and vegan a few times (albeit briefly) over the years, so I thought "I can DO this".
So a week ago I took the plunge. Surprisingly I've had few slip ups and feel much better already - and that's just one week! More importantly, for the first time in my memory I am looking at food as nourishment rather than the devil. For the first time I ENJOY food. I still have many many moments of nervousness and fear but I can talk myself through them much more easily.
I still smoke and that's something I'm not quite ready to give up yet. But in time, maybe that will go too.
Now the biggest factor that pushed me to go raw - the ability to live longer, so that I can be here for my African Grey's full lifespan:
http://photos-d.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-snc1/hs029.snc1/2656_63008752395_503207395_2063283_8191995_n.jpg