Unexpected Emotions

[annavon]

I am dealing with the recent loss of my ex-husband, Jason. He passed away last Thursday. I am surprised at the amount of saddness I am feeling. We have been divorced for thirteen years, but we have stayed friends.

He was suffering from liver disease caused by a combination of Hepatitus C and alcohol comsumption. He quit drinking about a year ago due to being incarcerated (for something that happened a long time ago, long story). Unfortunately the stress of his situation caused the hepatitus to flare up (he didn't know he had it).

I sent him some books on raw foods and natural healing techniques. He did what he could. He was sent home in December, but it seems that his liver was too far gone. I don't think he really comitted to doing the raw food either. I believe that if he could have received some alternative medical care and a raw food diet, he would still be alive.

He just turned 62. I thought he had a lot more to give to the world.

[livin]

I am sorry for the loss of your Jason. It's okay to be emotional; to feel sad at this time. I do wish you peace, strength and good memories of happy times that you and Jason shared.

[HolyGuacamole]

I'm so sorry.
Sending you love, light, peace and lots of hugs.

[MelissaO]

I am so sorry for your loss. (((Hugs)))

[freshlight]

I send you lots of love&peace. It's so beautiful that you stayed friends,-your bond was very special. Take care! Eva

[ViolinCyndee]

So sorry for your loss..

[luna99]

I am surprised at the amount of saddness I am feeling. We have been divorced for thirteen years, but we have stayed friends

why should you be surprised? anytime anyone that has touched our lives passes away there is a lot of emotion. My first boyfriend (who I was only really with for maybe 2 months - it was a quick summer romance type thing) passed away a few years after we had been together and even though I hadn't seen him in years, when I heard the news it floored me. I can only imagine if this man was my husband, and then my friend for 13 years, how devistating that would be.

I hope you can find comfort in friends and family at this time... make sure you talk about him as much as you feel comfortable doing.. tell stories and just re-live the good times. When my best friend died three years ago, I was lucky that my boyfriend (my husband now) listened to me talk about her for hours and all of our stories.. it really helped.

[firefaery]

I am so sorry for your loss. I agree with what everyone has posted, it is healthy to grieve at this time. He was a part of your life and that should have an impact on you.

Perhaps doing something to memorialize your time together would be helpful to you. It may bring you some peace to remember all the beautiful times between you and focus on them.

There is no prescribed time for grief. We all move through things in our own time. Be gentle with yourself and allow yourself to feel what you need to feel. It is only through experiencing our emotions that we can ever truly heal. I will be thinking of you and sending you love and light.

[Colorawdo girl]

My heart goes out to you.Our mates are one with us and as you know,breaking from them isnt easy and they are still in our blood. Cannot imagine losing an ex to death.You are feeling exactly how you would feel in this.Its ok to be sad and cry and grieve however you need to.Time is all I can say.The only way to it(the healing) is through it.Feel it to heal it.

Hugs to you and rest and nurture yourself through this time.

[rawffle]

Annavon, I am so sorry. It's hard to lose a friend, no matter how it is you came to know them. My mom took it very tough, too, when my dad passed, long after their divorce; it's still a loss. I can understand why it sort of surprises you, though. I think I would feel the same way about my ex (even old boyfriends, too, probably). Hugs to you.