debilana
08-28-2008, 05:20 PM
anyone experience any weird emotional stuff after being raw?
I had some "emotional detox" the first few months and now it seems to coming around again. I have been unable to define if it is that, hormones or a mix. This week has been a train wreck and I am SOO tired . Today I am so flatlined, just worn out. Had a crying spree last night and made a fool of myself in my online game community. I felt so bad I decided to end my account and not play anymore. Sometimes I really hate who I am...I want to be "normal". I have always had the feeling I am an oddball, my whole life. I am shy but overly friendly. I talk to much and say too much often. I try to be myslef but it takes a rare person to "get" me. I envy the people with all the big circle of friends, social lives, tight families.
I really cant express how I feel atm, other than relaly down on myself. Don't worry , I am not going to go eat a cheeseburger:D
Guess I am just looking for a few virtual hugs....you guys have been my lifeline for some time and I appreciate it so much!
ANyone that wants to link into my MYspace page is welcome to. It been one of those things that grew and grew over time and I never delete much, just keep adding=) SO theres a bit of everything on it.
I had some "emotional detox" the first few months and now it seems to coming around again. I have been unable to define if it is that, hormones or a mix. This week has been a train wreck and I am SOO tired . Today I am so flatlined, just worn out. Had a crying spree last night and made a fool of myself in my online game community. I felt so bad I decided to end my account and not play anymore. Sometimes I really hate who I am...I want to be "normal". I have always had the feeling I am an oddball, my whole life. I am shy but overly friendly. I talk to much and say too much often. I try to be myslef but it takes a rare person to "get" me. I envy the people with all the big circle of friends, social lives, tight families.
I really cant express how I feel atm, other than relaly down on myself. Don't worry , I am not going to go eat a cheeseburger:D
Guess I am just looking for a few virtual hugs....you guys have been my lifeline for some time and I appreciate it so much!
ANyone that wants to link into my MYspace page is welcome to. It been one of those things that grew and grew over time and I never delete much, just keep adding=) SO theres a bit of everything on it.