Crashed and Burned but Back Rocking now!!

[Helen121]

Its been a few weeks since I blogged and when you last heard from me I was doing fine and dandy with being all raw. But then I fell of the wagon and it has taken me a few weeks to claw my way back on. I kinda lost sight of myself for a little while and lost my faith in who I am and what I was doing. It was a difficult few weeks but now I am back I have a stronger sense of what I am doing this for.

I guess I find it difficult to admit to being less than perfect in the food department as my job as a Personal Trainer calls for me to be very focussed with the way I eat so that I can advise other people with their food choices. However, human nature always has a way of derailing the best laid plans of man and men and I find that I have a very strong sabotage pattern that plays itself out in different areas of my life, food being one of them. It is something that I am continually battling and working on.

Some would ask 'why bother with the raw food' when it is obviously something that I have an inner struggle with. Well my answer to that is the same answer I give myself everytime I question my commitment to it and that is; 'that this is the best way for me to eat and I never feel as good as I do when I am all raw'. In one of my posts on my blog I talk about a feeling of 'bliss' that comes over me when I am exclusively raw, and I think that for me at least, now I have experienced that feeling it is very difficult to not want it all the time.

So, even though my journey to stay raw may not be completely won it is not a 'battle' I am prepared to give up on. I want to be raw, I want to have that feeling of bliss permantely in my life because when I am in it the possibilities for me seem endless.

I am sticking with it, I am six days totally raw and I am rocking my world!! I feel positive and light and open to anything and long may it continue......

Sending bliss to everyone,

Helen

[Raspberry4]

Helen,

Your story is so familiar to me personnaly. I 'fell off' the wagon thinking I should be eating cooked protein in an effort to be more effective with weight training and to lose those last 10 stubborn pounds. Well I zigged and I zagged and now I have 40 pounds to lose (how the hell did that happen)? Anyway...thank you for sharing. I am with you and agree that I felt my best when raw. Here is to a great journey for you :)

[Anastazia]

Welcome back, glad you're here again... & yup, I, too, can totally relate!
It's what convinces me that 100% really is the way to go, though sometimes I wish it could be less & still be as blissfully effective!
~Anastazia~

[EZ rider]

Recently I had a similar experience. I was in a restaurant with the intention of getting a salad and when I was reading the menu i saw a "veggie Mexi wrap" and I yielded to a weak temptation to order it. I was over confident after 10 1/2 months all raw that I could eat the cooked thing and just go back to being all raw -- WRONG. I slipped off the raw path and fell off a cliff ! That was June 13th and I am still not back to all raw. I am improving and now at about 95% raw but I just can't get past dinner without having a baked potato or a bowl of cooked rice & veggies. I guess the bottom line is "an once of prevention is worth a pound of cure" and watch out for that first bite -- it might bite you back. I will get back to all raw but it has been harder getting back then it was to go all raw in the first place. I wonder why that is ?

[lytlsprout]

Think of it as a journey, not a battle. I think that most of us need to fall down and pick ourselves back up so we remember why we're doing it. I think for me to stay raw I've needed to fall off and get back on to see for myself how much better I feel on raw. It's like when the waiter puts something hot on the table and lets you know but you have to touch it to make sure. We actually learn through failure... watch a baby learning how to walk! Most of us are raw babies or toddlers so just pick yourself back up and keep going. and don't beat yourself up about it... have you ever seen a baby get down on themselves because they fell trying to walk?

[northernstars]

My perspective is a bit different than most. I intentionally eat some "cooked" vegan foods just to insure that I stick to vegan foods. Eating and staying healthy vegan is for me the most important part of this life style. I prefer most of my foods to be eaten raw, but I intentionally leave myself open to eat whatever foods that are beneficial and wholesome that are also cooked, much in the same way I used to eat while still eating the meats and dairy. I have watched very carefully what I ate for many years before I started to eat vegan. I have intentionally not eaten chemically laden or adulterated foods for many years so have avoided many of the foods to which most Americans are familiar.

My goal continues to be to eat the most wholesome foods I am able to buy in the healthiest manner, which translates to raw or very lightly steamed. Even before eating this way, I was very conscientious about how and what I ate.

[Helen121]

Thank you for all the comments and support coming my way. Everyone of you has something to say that resonates with me. Its so great to have some support from like minded people it really does make a huge difference.

I try not to think of my 'raw journey' in terms of a 'battle', but it is difficult sometimes to find the right words to describe it. Yes we all take big steps forward and then take some equally big steps back but as I said in my original post I think that it is human nature and maybe we are just testing ourselves to see if we really have the commitment to follow this path because lets face it people it ain't easy when the majority, or in my case when no-one else in my life is raw (except you wonderful virtual people here that is)Its hard to be the trail blazer and maybe we shouldn't be thinking in those terms but too be honest I want to shout this from the rooftops because I really do believe that this is the answer to so much of our ill health and sickness.

I think that raw food really is the key piece of my puzzle, you know the one that each of us has which shows the picture of our lives, what we should be doing, why we are here, what will truly make us happy, the holy grail that we are ultimately all searching for?? Hopefully I am ringing a few bells here otherwise this is just turning into some mad sunday night rambling!! (Its sunday night here in the uK where I live by the way)

I really do feel like I am on the edge of some great cliff and instead of taking a step forward and plunging into darkness I am about to take a step into a great light and soar upwards into my reality, my reason for being.

Ok, I better stop there as this is really getting too heavy for a sunday night. I just want to try and convey the strength of the feelings I seem to be having at the moment. Its pretty heavy but equally beautiful.

Who needs drugs when you have raw food???????

Helen