I can't DO this anymore!

[Zaphirah]

I can't keep binging. I just can't DO it anymore. It's killing me. I was raw from Sept til Feb 10th. My son went into the hospital for a week. it was a nightmare. I started eating cooked out of convenience, then it snowballed into full blown binging which I have struggled with all my life. I gained 15 lbs in one month. I need to come back to raw. I am dying without it. I have guilt about spending more $$$ on groceries. We are trying to dig ourselves out of a huge hole the hospital stay (and several other emergencies in the last year) have put us in. I struggle with guilt about the $ and I struggle with food. everyday is a struggle, in one direction or the other. All I know is that when I am not 100% raw, I am 100% out of control.

I need support right now. :o

[shashibala]

I feel for you and I'm sending you warm wishes and prayers! You've been going through so much! I have not had the extra problems but I'm still dealing with the extra money for food. I also can't eat cooked food with out feeling out of control, especially if i were under the stress you have dealt with. Don't worry about the weight. Just take it slowly and you will come back into balance! You have done it before and you'll do it again! Be good to yourself.
Best wishes!!

[greenday]

You can do it!!!!! Dig deep. I'm sorry times are so hard for you right now, but please consider you a priority to take care of, too! Why? Because then you will be healthier, stronger, calmer and more balanced - in turn you will be better prepared and effective as a caregiver. Consider the $$ as an investment in your family's well-being....not just yourself. Hang in there. :)

[Essensual]

...keep checkin' in, and we will keep sending the love and support. :)

Peace and blessings,

[Stina]

It's why I'm juice feasting. I was so desperate to get on top of the binging that I downsized my life to living in a travel trailer so I could afford to do it.

[Stina]

Hey, I was also wondering, if finances are a strain, would you consider doing more sprouting because it should be economical? Are you in a position to garden?

[EZ rider]

I can't keep binging. I just can't DO it anymore. It's killing me. I was raw from Sept til Feb 10th.When you feel the same way about fresh raw foods that I do you should have no problem putting all other foods behind you as you go forward enjoying having to do very little food preparation and cleanup combined with enjoying the radiant taste of fresh raw foods and the fantastic natural health support of the nutrients in fresh raw foods. I wish you success in your raw journey.

[PixieLed]

Hi Zaphira, I just wanted to write a quick note saying that I just did a power treatment for you. By that I mean that I sent you loads of good thoughts and that in the next few days you will feel the effects and be energized toward wealth, abundance and raw healthy foods!

Lots of love.

[RawHeaven]

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[Zaphirah]

thank you everyone. I woke up feeling much better. Made some sesame mylk for my tea. By my header, I meant, "I can't BINGE anymore" and "I can't afford to NOT be raw anymore". I must bow down before the Powerful Vibrant Raw Gods and Goddesses and surrender to their healing powers. I can't LIVE (or in this case DIE) using food in this way. Come hell or high water I must return to raw to save my life. I am dying without raw, literally.

[MOTH]

You'll get back on the path; of that I have no doubt.

Just do it. :)

[Aleesha Sattva]

i took the title to read the same as you intended zaphirah.

this too shall pass (like the diamond ring through the dog)... you will get back on track... why do i know this? because you've made it clear that this is what you and your body wants!

i am joining everyone... sending you love and support!

[amyambro1]

I'm having a similar issue with binging, and all I keep thinking is "How the hell did I go 8 months 100% raw with no problems, and I eat one smidgen of cooked food and suddenly it's a downward spiral that I can't seem to climb out of?" I'm working on trying different methods for getting rid of the cooked food addiction/the feelings underlying it. One thing that is beginning to help me is EFT. Try www.emofree.com. It's a really neat technique that helps to reduce my food cravings.

I wish you luck on climbing out of that hole. You're not alone in there!

[aliciamatheson]

Hey Zaphirah,

Glad to have you back - I've missed you on the boards - I hope your child is doing well and you are already back on track by showing up here.

Alicia
PS - 30 Day Challenge?