rawpriestess
05-31-2005, 03:37 AM
YOU are MY Inspiration.
Whereever you are is perfect, just as where I am is perfect.
Sometimes I look in the mirror and think, jeez I haven't lost much weight, but then I weigh myself and see that I have lost 40 pounds in the past 4 months.
So, then I remind myself that the last time I was this weight was about 10 years ago, I then feel much better about myself.
Everything is a process, and takes as long as it takes.
Sometimes, I think I might want to hurry it along, and do what others have done, diets, pills, lotions, creams, by-passes. And then I realize that changing THAT way isn't really a change IN me, it is taking something external and appying it to my body.
It still wouldn't change who I am, so I continue on day after day, meal after meal, thinking how one day, I will be thin, One day I will be healthy, One day I will feel so much better.
One day, some day, but at least it isn't in some far off distant land of never, like it used to be. It is actually on the horizon, I can see myself getting thinner each day, with each new meal, each choice.
And my friends and family love me for my taking charge of my life.
I used to think heavy peple weren't very bright, or didn't care about their appearance, even though I was heavy.
But now I understand, the heavier person has tried harder than the thin person. The heavier person has worked and struggled and exercised and jogged, and pilled, and dieted until they have no strength left, just like me, (maybe like you)
They are the true gladiators, the heros, the people that I want to know, the ones who have taken something in life, and overcome it, the ones who have dared to keep trying, to never give up, to endlessly strive for what they desire.
I salute you dear one, for keep on, keeping on. It gets easier with time, I know this now.
I used to think I could just eat one last supper, and then never eat again, like maybe fasting or pills or something, I thought that this would be easier than eating only a little a few times a day. I was an all or nothing type of person.
Now, after being raw for over four months, I can see that everything is life is a process, it is not a destination, it is the journey, the doing of it. The being part of all that there is.
The every day of it.
You are a true inspiration.
Blessings,
Rawpriestess
Whereever you are is perfect, just as where I am is perfect.
Sometimes I look in the mirror and think, jeez I haven't lost much weight, but then I weigh myself and see that I have lost 40 pounds in the past 4 months.
So, then I remind myself that the last time I was this weight was about 10 years ago, I then feel much better about myself.
Everything is a process, and takes as long as it takes.
Sometimes, I think I might want to hurry it along, and do what others have done, diets, pills, lotions, creams, by-passes. And then I realize that changing THAT way isn't really a change IN me, it is taking something external and appying it to my body.
It still wouldn't change who I am, so I continue on day after day, meal after meal, thinking how one day, I will be thin, One day I will be healthy, One day I will feel so much better.
One day, some day, but at least it isn't in some far off distant land of never, like it used to be. It is actually on the horizon, I can see myself getting thinner each day, with each new meal, each choice.
And my friends and family love me for my taking charge of my life.
I used to think heavy peple weren't very bright, or didn't care about their appearance, even though I was heavy.
But now I understand, the heavier person has tried harder than the thin person. The heavier person has worked and struggled and exercised and jogged, and pilled, and dieted until they have no strength left, just like me, (maybe like you)
They are the true gladiators, the heros, the people that I want to know, the ones who have taken something in life, and overcome it, the ones who have dared to keep trying, to never give up, to endlessly strive for what they desire.
I salute you dear one, for keep on, keeping on. It gets easier with time, I know this now.
I used to think I could just eat one last supper, and then never eat again, like maybe fasting or pills or something, I thought that this would be easier than eating only a little a few times a day. I was an all or nothing type of person.
Now, after being raw for over four months, I can see that everything is life is a process, it is not a destination, it is the journey, the doing of it. The being part of all that there is.
The every day of it.
You are a true inspiration.
Blessings,
Rawpriestess