slipped up

[lanettasmouse]

I came down to florida on december 18th and I leave to go back home to Tennessee tomorrow. I was doing so good and staying 100% raw up until a few days ago and I'm so mad at myself. I've eaten meat, Yuck!, and cooked food, cookies and I've drank. I really am mad at myself when I was doing so good the whole time, but then my brother left me at his house with no transportation to get back to my moms where my raw food was. So needless to say after being stuck in a house by myself for 9 hours with nothing to eat other than crap I had to eat crap. He wasn't supposed to be gone so long, but now it has screwed me up. I can't wait to get back home tomorrow so I can get back on track. I was doing 100% raw no problem for a little over 2 months and now because my ass of a brother was so inconsiderate I have fallen off. He has known that I've been eating this way too, so he's just that way. He never has cared what anybody else has to do for themselves. THE WORLD REVOLVES AROUND HIM, or so he thinks, and I got sucked in. I know I shouldn't be blaming him, because it is my fault too, no one held me down and forced me to eat cooked food. But if he hadn't taken my vehicle and left me at his house with no way to leave or do anything this wouldn't have happened. I just can't wait until tomorrow. I mean I've already gotten back on track, but I can't wait to just be back home where I don't have to worry about crap like this. I'll be in my own house far, far away from these people who are so inconsiderate of my lifestyle choices. I just want to go home and be with my fiance and my animals who support me and this raw life that I have chosen to lead. Thank you for allowing me to vent. I really needed it and I feel better already. I will not allow this slip up to take control of MY LIFE, only I live it and control it. So, I am a 100% RAW FOODIST and I LOVE IT!!!!!!

[Revvell]

Whoaaaa! Question for you ... if you had just drunk water, would you have starved????

It's easy to blame someone else for what YOU do...

Sounds to me as though you've got issues with your brother and you did something to YOURSELF so you can continue the blame and judgement. How long do you want to continue that and how is it serving you?

Oh... ooops! Just re-read and all you wanted to do was vent. My bad. O.k., back to our regularly scheduled programming. :o

Revvell

[GlimR]

Venting is a good thing....good to get your frustration off your chest.

Raw is a journey and you learn as you go....about being prepared, about making choices, about keeping or giving up your power. Things come up in life all the time that we have to deal with and what we choose to do very seldom has to do with what other people do or don't do but is really about what WE choose to do when faced with challenging situations...whether WE rise to the occasion with grace or not.

Wishing you a better day...and clarity to see where your power really lies~

[lanettasmouse]

revvell, please don't take this the wrong way, but you don't know my brother at all. and yea there is a part of me that blames him, but i know better than that and he didn't force me to eat that food. i made the decision myself, but if he hadn't taken off with my vehicle and all my money i at least could have gotten a salad from somewhere. yes i could have drank water, but when you are told "I'll be back in 2-3 hours" and you're left there for over 13 hours, sorry but I was TRUELY HUNGRY!!!! I had eaten before I went to his house but obvioulsy that was in the morning and I didn't cave in until around 7pm. And as bad as this may sound it's kind of a good thing i ate something cause he didn't get back until like 3am. if my body was ready to do a fast then I wouldn't have gotten hungry. i listen to my body as well as i can. I know you apologized and all, but you really shouldn't be so judgemental, critical or rude. and i aplogize if i'm being too harsh, but it needed saying.

[Revvell]

Well, this is not about me knowing your brother. YOU know him yet, you trusted him to do what he said, you allowed him to take off with "all your money", etc. I'm not judging, I'm not critical, I'm not rude and I'm not harsh. I'm looking at facts and you are the one telling them. I'm repeating them to you. That's it!

MY brother was why I didn't go back home again. I saw him for who HE was ~ and I didn't want to be around someone like that hoping he'd be other than who he was. 30 some odd years later and he's not changed. I have. I've learned to trust people to be who they are.

I've never blamed him for what he's done. I've accounted for how I responded and allowed him and others like him into my life. That's done. He was the first step but not the last. Reese, 21 years ago was the last. Took a long time to learn but, I got it.

I'm out!

Be well.

Revvell


revvell, please don't take this the wrong way, but you don't know my brother at all. and yea there is a part of me that blames him, but i know better than that and he didn't force me to eat that food. i made the decision myself, but if he hadn't taken off with my vehicle and all my money i at least could have gotten a salad from somewhere. yes i could have drank water, but when you are told "I'll be back in 2-3 hours" and you're left there for over 13 hours, sorry but I was TRUELY HUNGRY!!!! I had eaten before I went to his house but obvioulsy that was in the morning and I didn't cave in until around 7pm. And as bad as this may sound it's kind of a good thing i ate something cause he didn't get back until like 3am. if my body was ready to do a fast then I wouldn't have gotten hungry. i listen to my body as well as i can. I know you apologized and all, but you really shouldn't be so judgemental, critical or rude. and i aplogize if i'm being too harsh, but it needed saying.

[oceanee]

Whoa people.

In a situation like this, try and step back and look at the big picture.

We are each in control of our own choices and reactions.

Take a deep breathe, start fresh with raw and find that peace again.

Oceanee

[lanettasmouse]

yes i understand what you are saying, but it was the way it was presented. like i said i am sorry but i said what i felt needed to be said. i have learned from this and now i know that, just like your brother, things will not change. i know now that i can't trust my brother. i mean i thought i could. i always felt that if you can trust anyone in the world, obviously other than yourself, it shoud be family. so i've already told everyone in my family that this is the last trip i will be making down here. i'm done with being around people who are non supportive. it's just a shame that the people who should always support your decisions in life usually turn out to be the ones that don't and are judging. i was just wanting to get things off my chest so i could start out "fresh" again and clear headed. again i'm sorry if i was rude, that is not my intention in life. i love this forum because everyone here is so nice, friendly, knowledgable and supporting. i'm very sorry if offended anybody. i just have to take this as a learning expereince and move forward with my life. i can't allow others to bring me down like they've done in the past. and as unfortunate as it may be, if that means i have to shut myself out of my family's life, then so be it. again, i'm sorry.

[Conscious Midwife]

Gees

sounds like some MAD COW in here...

yup

when you slip off RAW and right into meat(burnt carnage, laiden with hormones and tortured before death) the effects are horrid and multifaceted.

Do a juice fast tommorow, meditate and get back on board all will be well.

Come back when your RAW for 72 hours and you'll get what Revell was presenting. I mean you will really get IT!:)

[Revvell]

Congratulations!!! And thank you for the lovely email. I'm glad you wrote what you wrote and got clarity. Many people go looooong into their adulthood before receiving that... still "trying" to get "family" to accept them and their choices.

Please, don't apologize. You've not offended anyone. Sometimes, on this board, "support" looks and feels different than one might expect. I totally support you in your choices although you may not recognize it now.

A LOT of people are going through something VERY similar to what you experienced at this time of year.

Congratulations and again, thank you for your email. One comin' back atcha.


Revvell





yes i understand what you are saying, but it was the way it was presented. like i said i am sorry but i said what i felt needed to be said. i have learned from this and now i know that, just like your brother, things will not change. i know now that i can't trust my brother. i mean i thought i could. i always felt that if you can trust anyone in the world, obviously other than yourself, it shoud be family. so i've already told everyone in my family that this is the last trip i will be making down here. i'm done with being around people who are non supportive. it's just a shame that the people who should always support your decisions in life usually turn out to be the ones that don't and are judging. i was just wanting to get things off my chest so i could start out "fresh" again and clear headed. again i'm sorry if i was rude, that is not my intention in life. i love this forum because everyone here is so nice, friendly, knowledgable and supporting. i'm very sorry if offended anybody. i just have to take this as a learning expereince and move forward with my life. i can't allow others to bring me down like they've done in the past. and as unfortunate as it may be, if that means i have to shut myself out of my family's life, then so be it. again, i'm sorry.

[gettingskinny]

don't beat yourself up so much. get over it and eat raw today! don't worry about yesterday, etc.!