Stop By And Leave me some support -Please

[Sweet lips]

There is something going on that is attempting to disrupt my life. I stand on the edge of the abyss, with faith and deciding that I have the trust, and I fall in, and hands embrace me and love me into health. That is what I am fighting the enemy with that is attempting to snatch my life away.

I went to the Doctor today, and with the pending mamogram because that wasn't good, a stress test for heart disease, and then to see the results that I now have protein in my urine, and that can signal a kidney issues, which as a diabetic, is very dangerous. Enough is enough. I had stopped my medications because I was not trusting them to heal me. Today, I will be resuming them at a lesser dosage than before because my doctor, who believes in raw suggest such and then I will work towards reducing them and eliminating them. I do not want to die with disease, I want die when my life has served its purpose and this is not the time. I am not sacred but wounded that this is happening to me all at one time and feel like Jacki in a bubble- what is next? Sprouting two heads and a tail.

Has my circle of life been so tainted that this is the result of my reaping something. I need support - I know that there is a victory here, it just has to be - nothing like this yeilds negative, it can only be a postive. I really want to live, I have just learned how to laugh and twril, learned how to dance the majic of the earth with the music of just the plants springing forth. I am learning to let go of debris and is my life trying hold on to the garbage.

What is this that I must bear this - it is not a why, I don't need to know the why, I am going to celebrate that which I can, and go through this time - I just don't want to do it quietly - I am shaking my hands at that which is attempting to destroy and trying my best to laugh through tears of life, which give me love.

This has been the hardest part of my journey to self and in my life ever. I wipe my tears now, and I hold my head up as high as I can, and I thank God for come what may. Blessings all



I have so much life to have and I am not going down! Life is more than things, it is blessings, it is surrender, it is challenges, it is joys, it is tears, it is laughter, it is pain, it is!!!!!

[Ireland]

SweetLips, God bless you!

Although I'm not here much, I do lurk every so often and find inspiration often just when I need it the most.

I'll pray and trust with you dear Sister. Always remember, you are not alone. I too am going through many trials (some physical, some emotional, some spiritual - they're all so connected, aren't they?) and have to believe that they will bring me to a better place. Not only is a place being prepared for us, but we are being prepared for that place.

Pure gold fears no fire.

With much love, thoughts and prayers,

Shannon

[Sweet lips]

Thanks for You Walking' On Water - right now, things just hurt so bad - I am glad to hear from you and will pray your strenght through all of this.

Jacki

[caramba]

Dear Jacki,

Sending you love and support in this difficult part of your Life Journey.
Be strong.
Cry if you need to.
Have faith in you & your purpose...

Your spirit shines through on these boards.

XXX

[Pailani]

I'm sending prayers and support in your direction. With a pre-existing condition, it just may take more time before you can get off the meds totally.

[rawpriestess]

Dearest Sweetlips,

To YOU who has been an inspiration to us all, I wish you joy, happiness, comfort and peace, I wish you pleasure, healing, health and abundance.

[Sweet lips]

Thanks for You Walking' On Water - right now, things just hurt so bad - I am glad to hear from you and will pray your strenght through all of this.

Jacki

[yeahbethany]

SweetLips,

God bless you. You have been, and continue to be an inspiration for all of us. We are here for you.

[VeganVixen]

(((((((((((((((((((((((hugs!))))))))))))))))))))))

fight the good fight ! You know you have our support!!!!!!!!

[Ginger]

I just want to let you know that i'm sending positive energy in your direction & that I know you are gonna be just fine. Why do I know that? Because you are on a journey to healing & if the mind can see it, the body can achive it! Anything you desire is in your reach! Never give up!

[Rawkinlocs]

Ma,

You know you have my love and prayers as always! Keep holding on and through it all, in the midst of it all know and trust that this, too, shall pass. For the trying of your faith worketh patience.

Love you,

Cherie

[tglasco4]

Hang in there Sister! I am going into serious prayer for you. I know for sure I am not nearly the only one.

"The Lord will take away from thee all sickness." Deuteronomy 7:15.

The words spoken to Israel are true today of those who recover health of body or health of soul. "I am the Lord that healeth thee." Exodus 15:26. {MH 113.2}

He it is who "forgiveth all thine iniquities; who healeth all thy diseases; who redeemeth thy life from destruction; who crowneth thee with loving-kindness and tender mercies." Psalm 103:3, 4. {MH 113.4}

Sweetlips I will pray that these promises become reality in your experience. Hold on...don't let go......as Jacob did......until you receive the blessing.

With much love and prayer for you,

Todd

[PixieGreen]

Sweetlips, bless you for your honest and raw expression of where you are right now. Thank you for trusting this forum enough to ask for support. You are surrounded by love in your real life and online. One sentence of many spoke to me, when you said, "Has my circle of life been so tainted that this is the result of my reaping something." I have been there. It felt like years I was in that place and it didn't do me any good. I can tell you what I have come to understand [for me]. The answer is emphatically NO! No. Nobody is perfect, no one. Sometimes things. just. happen. Some of us carry a heavier burden than others. SL, If you are concerned about the wrongs you may have done so far in your life open your heart and let them go. Make room for the beauty of your soul and the love that pours out of the people who love you. And be well, dear.

Christa

[RawTruth]

Jacki - This cloud will move on and, with it, the shadow that's casting its darkness on you. You'll step out from under it, and, as you continue on your path, find that the sunlight, fresh air, love, purpose (and ripe fruits of the earth) are still here as part of your life. You are living ... thriving ... growing. I know with certainty that we're not given more than we can bear. You're in my prayers.

[Tanja_swe]

My thoughts are with as are my prayers. I wish you all the best!

[Sharon in Colorado]

Hi Jacki - Hope all is well and getting better for you! I know you will find renewed hope and peace as the days go by. You can handle anything with God on your side!

Much love, hope and peace to you and your family!

[Helen Of Tennessee]

Hi SweetLips,

I just prayed for you! I'm so sorry that you are going through all of this, but there is probably a reason. Once you overcome these health issues (with the foods you eat), you're going to have a great testimony and you will be here to help others that will be going through some or all of what you are dealing with now. Your posts that I have read come across to me that you are a strong person. I know you're going to work hard to regain your health. I can also see from this thread you have many people who are praying for you, thinking of you and have words of support for you. Stay with this board. Keep us posted on your journey.

<>< Helen of Tennessee

[EmeraldGlow]

Kudos to you for seeing the light of everything happening around you! You are a wonderful example to all of us and with that said I'm forever greatful :). Much love to ya! The storm will soon pass.

[Gosia]

when I first clicked on your Journal, I discovered that you are such a beautiful woman. You are an inspiration too. I wish you all the best.

Lots of hugs,
Gosia.

[Fuzzball]

SL,

You are only under attack when Gods adversary knows that you are taking steps to rid your life of him!

Keep it up, keep doing what we all know to be right. If you were following the adversaries plan you wouldn't be feeling any pain right now.

You know in your heart that this will change your life for the better, but he will not let you make it if he finds that he can test your faith!

I'm lifting you up in prayer as soon as I finish typing this reply, go with God and let him bring you back to health!

You're one of my support staffs.....don't let him bring two of us down!

Kevin

[Sweet lips]

This weekend has been of reflection and time - I discussed everything with my family, my Mom and Dad as well. I must admit, this is difficult - it is really difficult and so surrender I must as I have no power of my own. We ( my church friends) always say that when this amount of trouble comes, there has to be a hugh blessing right around the corner.

I already believe that I am blessed because of these caring hearts that you have put forth for me, I also believe that I need to count my blessings until.... :) my change comes.

I received a P.M. from someone who has shared so much of herself with me and has become my friend, and provided that my body could be in midst of a detox and retracing. I am replacing my previous thoughts of a pending death, yes, I felt that way, with that my body must go through this to heal. I also was counseled by a minister friend who told me to write it out - the angers, the missed opportunites, the joys, the sorrows the alls, so that I can repattern those thoughts and all the ones that have contributed to my toxic body, mind and wounded spirit.

"When you li down, you will not be afraid; Yes, you will lie down and your sleep will be sweet." Proverbs 3:24 , my friends - all of you- have helped me take this scripture to heart, and rejoice in my spirit.

This week is a quiet week for me, so I will not be on much - there are a few who know how to reach my family - I will be going in for test with the cardiologist and hemotologist this week, so I before, between and doing I shall be in prayer and meditation. It is so funny that this past week that my healing touch therapist Tina, said, you must be quiet and spend sometime alone, it could be through illness, so that you can heal.

Bless you my friends, [I]The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? The Lord is the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid - Psalm 27:1[/I} - Thank You!!!! \o/

[sachis2112]

Happy thoughts to you my dear. Stay strong. If you can beat SAD, you can beat anything!

[tracyinfo]

Sweetlips,

My hugs and blessings go out through cyberspace and across the country. You are such an inspiration on this board. Please keep us updated when you can.

[solarliving]

what a great name. I just want to say you are an amazing woman. The challenges you have faced are not easy, but here you are determined and strong. As the others have said, you are an inspiration. Keep up the postive mental attitude and never forget how powerful the body is to heal itself.

Sending love and light,

Angela

[rawmom]

Hey Sweetlips hang in there! Sending in a prayer for you and a hug your way!
Stay strong!

Rawmom

[brandilynn]

Babygirl, you know its okay to crawl up in your BigDaddy's lap and cry if you need to. The sweetest smelling sacrifice is the praise and trust even hollared out between your sobs.

Jesus said - the man's blindness was not because of his or his parents sin, but so the Glory of God would be revealed.

I will keep you held up and bless your sweet head with peace, peace, peace.