12-20-2007, 04:10 PM
I've been dabbling with raw since October 2007, I say dabbling because dh agreed to it but as long as he had 1/2 dinner cooked (he feels he needs cooked grains, atleast a little) and everything else can be raw. So trying to be mostly raw was hard as I would crave cooked food so much after eating a small piece of something cooked and instead of being 80% raw I was probably more like just over half. A few weeks ago I decided that's fine for him but for me I really need to be completely raw. And now I found I'm not crazy at all, mentally that is. I was just cooked! Since I was very young I dealt with depression and "mental disorders". I didn't take any meds for it and I just fought it, but it was so stressful. I couldn't pick up a knife without seeing myself stabbing myself with it, I couldn't ever take a subway alone because I'd get urges to jump in front of one, I couldn't even change a light bulb because I'd get urges and images to stick my finger in and turn it on, things like that. Scary and stressful to have to have these terrible and violent images in my mind every day and having to always be fighting them. I never took meds thankfully, my moms a nurse but my dad would not allow me to take meds due to possible side effects and since I couldn't swallow pills I always used that as an excuse to my mom, since I never acted on it she just let it be. I also had issues with not wanting to eat and then eating all the time. I was always hungry and very thin, but I felt better when I didn't eat. So I'd go on these cycles of not eating until I got all shaky since I felt better not eating and then when I did eat I couldn't stop because I was always hungry. As an adult I learned to control this and I was always hungry and felt terrible, and was always eating, I thought I was allergic to food period or something, I hated eating. But after just a few weeks 100% raw it is ALL GONE!!!! I LOVE food and eating now and I am amazed, I expected these things to be the last thing to leave and I expected it to go slowly, but it's been one of the first benefits along with energy and not needing as much sleep. Thank GOD is all I have to say, and yay, I'm not insane I was just allergic to cooked food (aren't we all?).