Help!!!!!!!!

[Shanna77]

What is my problem? Why do I sabotage myself, I am a 2 time breast cancer survivor and used raw food to heal my body! I was down 53 pounds and feeling great! I have now slipped to the dark side and have gained 10lbs back and feel like crap! Not only physically but mentally. I need support and need a push to do 100% raw!!! i started out today with banana for breakfast and carrots and hummus for lunch but then my husband made pizza for dinner and I ate that and now feel like well I already blew it so I might as well start tomorrow...That is my excuse all the time, I'll start tomorrow....Help!!!!!!!!!:mad:

[tvillemom]

Shanna....hang in there! You can do this. I KNOW WHAT YOU MEAN....I've been on and off the 100% raw band wagon for 2 years. I just want to you know, you are not in this alone. I actually feel like I'm starting over right along with you! Check out the 30 day challenge thread....there is so much support there!

You can do this. Just keep on stuffing down the raw foods. I guess for me it's an all or nothing mentality, and some people say that is not healthy, but if I allow slips, the slips get larger....so I've made a very conscious and verbal aggreement that I will not have any cooked food.

[oceanee]

Hi Shanna,
I send you a big hug and hope you join in with all of the newbies on this site(and seasoned rawbies, too of course!). I know just what you mean as I am also an all or nothing type. Once I slip, I just take myself further down BUT it doesn't help so come on in and eat the raw .
I just came out of a few bad months of self abuse in the food department but I am on my path and being a part here helps.
You did the best thing by reaching out - we're here for you. Read the great stories and blogs of so many as there are great inspirational stories to tell.
Can hubby try and eat that darn pizza a night when you make your own raw pizza? ( Just a thought?)
Hang in there !
Oceanee

[trinity082482]

I used to use the "I'll start tomorrow" excuse and it would repeat!
Just hang in there. :)

[gettingskinny]

First of all..you rock! How inspiring that you healed your body not once, but twice! YOU did that! You can do anything.

I was coming here to post about the same thing. I went raw for 3 days last week and felt great. The last 2 days I've been eating cooked again. It does feel like it has to be all or nothing. Is that true though? Why can't we have something cooked sometimes? Because we will fall off, or start eating more crap. For me I've noticed more bloating and cravings the last 2 days.

Hugs to you and maybe we can do this together!

[maui_butterfly]

you're not alone. you've got a lot of people right here with you, supporting you. the whole universe is supporting you on your journey.

please don't beat yourself up about the missteps you've made. we've all done that, and it never works. we think that by shaming ourselves we will stop the behavior, but it doesn't, just the opposite in fact -- shame, anger, disappointment, blame, negative self-talk only serve to keep us in our ruts. our inner child literally rebels against the authoritative/shaming "parent". its so important to be gentle with yourself.

the only bite that matters is the NEXT one, not the one you already took. when i slip, i just get back in the saddle and move forward.

set an intention. write it down. have a little mantra that goes with it. mine is this: "i release all blocks to my optimum health and well-being. my mind and God's mind are one." breathe deeply and let your words sink into your body.

find 5 good things about where you are in your raw foods journey RIGHT NOW, and keep your focus there. the positivity will help keep you on track. when i am chiding myself for eating something i wish i had not, i remind myself (1) i ate 600x more raw food today than i did on a typical day of my "healthy" vegetarian SAD diet of 19 years (2) how lucky i am to have found the raw path (how many people even have this in their awareness?!? we are BLESSED) (3) progress, not perfection! (4) how much more i know about myself, my body, my behaviors, and food in general then i did even 4 months ago.. etc.

detach a bit from yourself! get out of your body's way of healing itself. instead of going into the negative self talk ("i shouldn't have! i'm weak! i should know better! why is this so hard for me?") remain detached and observe, be interested in the proces ("isnt that INTERESTING how i just ate a piece of pizza and now i have a headache" "isn't that INTERESTING that i am not hungry at all, but i still am craving a taco bell bean burrito... hmmm, my cravings must have nothing at all to do with hunger! Fascinating!" ) write your observations down, like Jane Goodall studying the gorillas...

be lighter with yourself. this is a process. this moment is the beginning of the rest of your life. and you don't have to wait until tomorrow to start ANYTHING. its always easier to start in the very next moment.

good for you for reaching out and getting support. we're here for you!

[gettingskinny]

you're not alone. you've got a lot of people right here with you, supporting you. the whole universe is supporting you on your journey.

please don't beat yourself up about the missteps you've made. we've all done that, and it never works. we think that by shaming ourselves we will stop the behavior, but it doesn't, just the opposite in fact -- shame, anger, disappointment, blame, negative self-talk only serve to keep us in our ruts. our inner child literally rebels against the authoritative/shaming "parent". its so important to be gentle with yourself.

the only bite that matters is the NEXT one, not the one you already took. when i slip, i just get back in the saddle and move forward.

set an intention. write it down. have a little mantra that goes with it. mine is this: "i release all blocks to my optimum health and well-being. my mind and God's mind are one." breathe deeply and let your words sink into your body.

find 5 good things about where you are in your raw foods journey RIGHT NOW, and keep your focus there. the positivity will help keep you on track. when i am chiding myself for eating something i wish i had not, i remind myself (1) i ate 600x more raw food today than i did on a typical day of my "healthy" vegetarian SAD diet of 19 years (2) how lucky i am to have found the raw path (how many people even have this in their awareness?!? we are BLESSED) (3) progress, not perfection! (4) how much more i know about myself, my body, my behaviors, and food in general then i did even 4 months ago.. etc.

detach a bit from yourself! get out of your body's way of healing itself. instead of going into the negative self talk ("i shouldn't have! i'm weak! i should know better! why is this so hard for me?") remain detached and observe, be interested in the proces ("isnt that INTERESTING how i just ate a piece of pizza and now i have a headache" "isn't that INTERESTING that i am not hungry at all, but i still am craving a taco bell bean burrito... hmmm, my cravings must have nothing at all to do with hunger! Fascinating!" ) write your observations down, like Jane Goodall studying the gorillas...

be lighter with yourself. this is a process. this moment is the beginning of the rest of your life. and you don't have to wait until tomorrow to start ANYTHING. its always easier to start in the very next moment.

good for you for reaching out and getting support. we're here for you!

beautifully written!

[Shanna77]

I am so lucky to have all your support! Today is a new day and a new me! I have eaten raw all day so far and of course with this light headache I know my body will thank me tomorrow!!!Everyday seems to be a challenge right now but I know that will pass as soon as my body gets back into the groove!!! Thanks so much for all of the great advice! I really needed a reality check!

[shakti17]

today is day one for me too:)

[tanishamarshall]

Hang in there Shanna you can do it and like everyone has said don't beat yourself up, just get right back on raw.

It is wonderful to hear that you healed yourself twice from breast cancer. If you don't mind me asking, what did your food regimen consist of when you switched to raw foods to heal your cancer? Also how long did it take? Ok I hope I didn't ask to much, just curious.
Tanisha

[Carlsbad]

Welcome welcome! One tip I have (after falling and starting again a bunch) is to make sure you're eating enough. Seriously, go hog wild on the raw foods for as long as it takes. When I do that, cooked food has no appeal to me, but if I get even the slightest bit hungry, I start to think about cooked food (I'm talking about during times when cravings lurk--I haven't had a cooked food craving in weeks, so it does get easier as you go along!!). Feast on fabulous raw foods--that will help your body understand that it's not being deprived in any way, and it will help you stay strong against the cooked food addiction. Oh, and green smoothies help a lot too!

[Shanna77]

Hey Tanisha I wanted to write back and tell you what I was doing while i was going through Breast cancer. After my surgery I had 12 weeks of intense chemo therapy, at the time my daughter was 2 and I didn't have a lot of help from people other than my husband. I had chemo on friday's so I knew I had to be better for monday. So Before chemo i would have green smoothies for more vitamns because I knew I would be facing the porcelein devil soon after. After having chemo I would have fruit smoothies if I could keep it down or just some pineapple. During the week I strickly stuck to fruit in the morning then transition the rest of my day to veggies and some nuts. My doctors couldn't believe my blood cell counts, for a sick person they said I was the healthiest on they had ever seen! My doctors started doing more research into raw foods and they now are asking my oppinions about other patients. You would think I would follow my own advice. When I can give others such good advice. Oh well we all need a push once in a while, and a reminder of how I got that way in the first place!

[catscharm74]

Shanna77- you are a beautiful person and you have truly inspired ME to get my behind in gear!!! Remember, you do not travel this journey along- God bless you and your family.

Cheers,
Heather

[aliciamatheson]

Shanna,

Please consider joining us for the rest of the month on the December Challenge thread. At the very least, it's amusing and wacky.

I'd love to hear more about it. All the raw food teachers out there are LOVING your story as an inspiration to others going through the same.

Alicia

[Shanna77]

I would love to join the december challenge, I could use the support right now!!! Yesterday I was all raw and planning on it today....My body is kinda detoxing itself today so I trying to stay strong!!!!

[aliciamatheson]

Yahoo! please do - see you there! alicia

[tanishamarshall]

Hey Tanisha I wanted to write back and tell you what I was doing while i was going through Breast cancer. After my surgery I had 12 weeks of intense chemo therapy, at the time my daughter was 2 and I didn't have a lot of help from people other than my husband. I had chemo on friday's so I knew I had to be better for monday. So Before chemo i would have green smoothies for more vitamns because I knew I would be facing the porcelein devil soon after. After having chemo I would have fruit smoothies if I could keep it down or just some pineapple. During the week I strickly stuck to fruit in the morning then transition the rest of my day to veggies and some nuts. My doctors couldn't believe my blood cell counts, for a sick person they said I was the healthiest on they had ever seen! My doctors started doing more research into raw foods and they now are asking my oppinions about other patients. You would think I would follow my own advice. When I can give others such good advice. Oh well we all need a push once in a while, and a reminder of how I got that way in the first place!


Wow Shanna, thanks so much for sharing you are such an inspiriation.

[StarFire]

Shanna... its so good to see you posting again! I missed you!!

this link below is to justine's blog... its called 5 wishes...

http://www.rawfoodtalk.com/blogs/blog-1683/entry-8341/

I read this blog and it yanked me up short - made me STOP and really think.

For me - the answers were simple... and it all came down to me ... "trying"... or not "really applying myself - to give it all I had - all my best"....

You are an AMAZING WOMAN.... and your testimony gives so many of us hope and inspiration....

You know that path Shanna - and we are there with you ;) ... and frankly -- PROUD to be here with you!

rawk on girl.... we're doin it together!

http://i149.photobucket.com/albums/s43/FireStar_830/high5.jpg ... LET'S DO IT...

[RawHeaven]

So Before chemo i would have green smoothies for more vitamns because I knew I would be facing the porcelein devil soon after. After having chemo I would have fruit smoothies if I could keep it down or just some pineapple. During the week I strickly stuck to fruit in the morning then transition the rest of my day to veggies and some nuts. My doctors couldn't believe my blood cell counts, for a sick person they said I was the healthiest on they had ever seen! My doctors started doing more research into raw foods and they now are asking my oppinions about other patients.

This is soooo amazing Shanna and so are you! You're healing yourself and influencing millions, perhaps billions of people. What you've shared with your oncologists will have a rippling effect, if not now, then certainly in the future. They are busy, busy, busy researching raw foods and it's impact on extreme healing...they're getting ready for their big annual medical conference to shine and share this info...just you watch. You can't hide the truth - it always rises to the top. You're so powerful and I couldn't say it better with the advice you've received. I'll just add one more big hug and just say I'm in awe of you. You're something else and don't you forget it sister. ;) You're doing great. I've been there myself slipping into cooked lala land, you'll be fine.

Edit: Shanna, I forgot to tell you that I also experienced something similar yet different with my team of orthopedic surgeons who were astounded at how well I healed a traumatic leg injury just by changing my diet. And getting completely off of prescription pain medication which they had banished me to taking for the rest of the life for chronic pain. I no longer have "chronic pain". :-D So just think of the implications...the more of us who are out there healing and interacting with others, especially in traditional medicine, the better.

http://asymptotia.com/wp-images/2007/01/yellow_rose.jpg

[Shanna77]

Thank you all for your amazing support! I have been raw all week anf I feel like a new woman! I only wish I could spread the this christmas miracle of health to everyone that is not touched yet with the raw world!!! I'll get it out there somehow!!! Happy holidays to all!!!!

[gettingskinny]

You are awesome! You jumped right back on and haven't looked back. Thank you for inspiring me today! Stay strong!

[Shanna77]

Happy holidays to all you amazing raw foodies!!!! I am staying strong even with the holidays and all the food that goes along with it. Good food good people what more could a girl want. Nothing else matters other than how you feel and the people that make it all worth while! Love and health to you all! Merry Merry Christmas!!!!!!!