*kicking myself*... starting all over...

[Tanja_swe]

... ok so tomorrow I'm starting my new 30 day challenge. And I'm really annoyed... I was more or less 100% raw for about 4 months... and then I just threw it away! WHY?!?!? I did a quick test with the tape measurer tonight and it seems like I'm back to where I started from :( All my hard work is vanished.

Well, well... not much to do now I guess. New day tomorrow!!

So my plan is.... 100% raw for 30 days, simultaneously I will follow Anthony Robbins Personal Power tapes and I will restart my routine with the Tibetan Rites. May will be the month where I will transform myself. And I will restart my journal tomorrow too! And post new pictures.....

and guys... PLEASE!!! If (When!!) I start to moan during the next 30 days PLEASE give me a hard kick and a brutal reality check... this is my own choice, it's my life and I want to live it! The best I can. I deserve raw food, not the bad icky artificial dead stuff I've been feeding it.

YAY! Off to have some wraps now :) See y'all tomorrow!

[Rawkinlocs]

Hey Tanja,

MANY of us are or have recently been where you are sweetie...so don't beat up on yourself too badly, it's part of this whole wonderful process!

BUT...it being part of the process isn't a reason to indulge in it whenever the feeling hits ya either! ;)

One thing that helps a lot is what member, Swingbolder, recommended - in your journal, write down 3 reasons you want to eat raw...3 new reasons each day for 30 days. I had slacked off on doing this, but yesterday, when I was going through a MAJOR craving-attack (which I have come to realize is a part of the whole detox process) I thought about some of my reasons I had listed and that "kinda" put me in check. The main one that stuck with me and sticks with me is...if I am to be a "Health Minister" and share this wonderful way of life with others, I had better be practicing what I preach and if I can't make it a lousy 30 days with no "cheats" then how can I expect to help others and tell them to do it for at least 30 days!!

So, think about incorporating that into your plan.

[misslinda]

Right on!


I know that feeling of disappointment BUT you know, it's a great relief knowing that you are where you began rather than getting the Evil tape measure and finding out it's more !!!!!!

Great attitude makes me giggly inside--al smiles :p :p :p


500 points for you today Tanja-- :D

[rawruh]

i just started 30 day challenge today, actually i started about a month ago, but crashed out. i did 8 months straight once before crashing out. my weight goes up and down with it all. but one thing i would like to say, although my weight may sometimes end up back where i started, i myself, am not. i think that fact that you were disciplined for 4 whole months must have taught you just how powerful you are, you know its possible now. our weights will probably continue to fluctuate, till we learn what we need to learn here, but each victory and each defeat is making us move forward internally. the external fruit will certainly follow!

[misslinda]

but one thing i would like to say, although my weight may sometimes end up back where i started, i myself, am not. i think that fact that you were disciplined for 4 whole months must have taught you just how powerful you are, you know its possible now. our weights will probably continue to fluctuate, till we learn what we need to learn here, but each victory and each defeat is making us move forward internally. the external fruit will certainly follow!


Dang Rawruh, you said this so perfectly!


500 point foryou too! :) :p ;)

Raw point system Punch Card
After so many days raw= Receive Perks
Think good, Feel good and Look good. ;)

[rawpriestess]

I remember reading an interview with Raquel Welch a few years ago, and one of the questions they asked her was about her diet and exercise.

She said that she ONLY lasted 3 years on her (very strict) diet and exercise program without cheating, and that she couldn't believe how un-disciplined she was, she was all upset with herself about it STILL after all these years.

Personally, I have better things to do with my energy than beat myself up, (probably why I don't look like Raquel Welch).

I am not perfect, and I don't think I want to be. I don't want my tombstone to say, "She was 100% raw food eater for 3986 days without cheating", I don't want it to read, "She kept a spotless house." I want it to read, "She lived life with PASSION."

So, although we can all strive for perfection, we are all works in process, and progress.

I don't care for computer generated art because it is too perfect, everything in nature has a little flaw somewhere, that is one of the beauties of Nature, and what is real.

So, realize that although you can strive to be perfect, you won't be learning or growing that way, you only learn from experience, and experience comes from doing something NOT perfect, and doing something not Perfect comes from trying, and trying comes from making a committment to something you care about, and making a committment to something you care about, comes from choosing to make a change, and choosing to make a change comes from not feeling perfect.

So, you may choose to embrace your personal process/progress and enjoy each step of the way, or not, it is up to you.

I am not perfect, and therefore I get to learn each day how to help others along this path.

"If it were easy, then anybody could do it." my mom used to say this to me, when ever I felt like something was too difficult, like painting a portrait when I was 4 or 5 years old, or remembering an entire dance routine when I was 6, or making a recipe when I was 7, she said this to me, and I always loved the challenge. For some reason, doing something that others found difficult gave me a great deal of pleasure. I am an over acheiver. Nuff said.

blessings, to you for not giving up, we are with yah,
Rawpriestess

[swingbolder]

I heard some great words of wisdom in church today, the pastor said "It's not how often you fall down, it's how often you pick yourself UP that counts."

Be gentle with yourself, this is no small thing you're doing, being raw in a cooked world.

I just completed my first 30 day challenge then got hit by PMS cravings so bad yesterday that I CHOSE not to resist them. Ate a whole bunch of cooked stuff, not junky stuff, healthy vegan food, but definitely more food than my body is used to now. It was delicious, I have a slight hangover (tummy ache, headache) today, but big deal, y'know? Today is May 1st and it's a lovely, sunny day to begin anew!

[GENTRY]

... ok so tomorrow I'm starting my new 30 day challenge. And I'm really annoyed... I was more or less 100% raw for about 4 months... and then I just threw it away! WHY?!?!? I did a quick test with the tape measurer tonight and it seems like I'm back to where I started from :( All my hard work is vanished.

Well, well... not much to do now I guess. New day tomorrow!!

So my plan is.... 100% raw for 30 days, simultaneously I will follow Anthony Robbins Personal Power tapes and I will restart my routine with the Tibetan Rites. May will be the month where I will transform myself. And I will restart my journal tomorrow too! And post new pictures.....

and guys... PLEASE!!! If (When!!) I start to moan during the next 30 days PLEASE give me a hard kick and a brutal reality check... this is my own choice, it's my life and I want to live it! The best I can. I deserve raw food, not the bad icky artificial dead stuff I've been feeding it.

YAY! Off to have some wraps now :) See y'all tomorrow!
TANJA==i am so very proud of you. obviously, you do not take defeat kindly and that is why you will succeed in your natural food efforts (i use the term natural foods rather than[B]raw foods=since it does mean the same thing). someone like you who stayed with your new natural food plans four months proves one thing to me. you have never been a quitter=even when you were a small child. no, tanja, you have not failed! you have succeeded! an example! look at a glass of water, filled up to the middle only. is the glass half full or half empty? your glass is half full with an emphasis on the full.

think of the people that i contact and have contacted in my 25 years of teaching. all i have to say is vegetables or veggies to a student=any age= K through 12 and on to the university. to see those people screw up their faces in disgust as they reach for yet another dripping slice of pepperoni pizza is something else.

once again, i am proud of you. you are still succeeding.

GENTRY (OR ROBERT, IF YOU PREFER MY REAL NAME) SUNDAY, MAY 1 AT 4PM IN SAN ANTONIO, TEXAS

[Tanja_swe]

it's been a MAD not so raw first day and I'm knackered. Won't bother you with all the details it's a bit too personal for me to share at this point. Lets just say that my emotions were all over the place and I "had" to comfort eat.... well well... I know why and I won't kick myself over it. At least the day had a few quite good raw meals.. one step at a time.

Today I've had a mixed breakfast, fruit with sandwich. Lunch will be a salad that I've already prepared... the rest of the day is still up for grabs.

I'll just have to accept that I'm doing great if I do the best I can. Regardless of what that is at that moment. So I think I'll have to wait with the 30 day challenge for a while and just do a day-to-day challenge.

I will strive for 100% raw but I can't commit 100% right now.

Xtra good things that happened today was that my dehydrator arrived, I also got myself a food processor and Julianos uncook book!

Thanks for listening and sorry for being so wishy-washy.... I'm now off to read my new book and then _hopefully_ get some sleep.

Than you guys! :) Some really good advice here. I will definetly start writing down 3 reasons each day, I'm sure that will help.

Off to get some sleep now :)

[growinhealth]

Tanja_swe hey I am right there with ya this is my life too and I choose raw I am on board for 30 days because my boyfriend is supporting me to know! We can do it girl! We all can do it! New Pictures and new journal starts tomorrow a new slate for me! also starting yoga and kick boxing I always liked it!

[twinyoga]

If this helps...

I think raw should be fun! Raw should not be about beating yourself up for eating something cooked. If you do eat something cooked, learn from it. Listen to your body. Observe. I'm not 100% raw, but I am striving for raw food to be the majority of my intake every day.

Some people can go straight into raw and never look back. Some can't. We are all different.

Just don't beat yourself up. Life is too short to do that.

[tracyinfo]

Tanja_swe, I also have Juliano's book. The meatloaf is delicious, and the butternut squash soup with finely chopped mint and jalapeno's sprinkled on top is wonderful. Also, try out the oatmeal cookies!

Blessings.

[ren]

I support you fully. I'm going raw just one day at time. I was listening to a David Wolfe CD and he talked about a friend who went raw by just thinking about food only fifteen minute at a time.

[Sweet lips]

No blame, no shame - it is what it is. Tanje, you hav been missed, especially with your food creations. So for one - welcome back, for two, be ever so loving to you right now. Remind yourself of the beauty within, and let yourself go with the process.

I was traveling that road as well, and through all the ups and downs, I just decided that I have been a victim long enough, smiled and said a pray for love to fill me inside and all around me - the ability to love myself as I have sought to have others love me, the ability to allow the "sins" to go into the sea of forgetfulness and the beauty of God's grace.

I as well as many are here for you - so what if day one wasn't day one - it is your intention that matters now.

Be kind to you today