Day 30 of 30 - feeling disheartened

[sherahtaylor]

Someone please tell me these are pregnancy hormones or something! I'm on day 30 of a 30-day challenge - yay - but I honestly just feel like crap. I haven't been eating all *that* great lately - (meaning not as many mono meals as I'd like, and too much salt on my corn!) but it's been 100% raw so....I shouldn't be feeling like this. At least, I don't think.

Today I ate so far:

3 carrots
1/2 of an 8lb watermelon
1/4 cup of guacamole with two large carrots
2 raw brownies, about 1/4 cup worth
1/2 of my vitamix full of green smoothie which comes out to: 5oz. spinach, 3/4 apple, 1 small banana, 1/2 of a cucumber, 1 cup water, 1/2 tsp. spirulina, & 1.5 T. of ground flax seeds.
Tonight I'll finish the other half of my green smoothie (which is exactly what was in the first half) and probably have some local corn with sea salt, maybe 2-3 ears.

I'm just really, really irritable - I can't stop mouthing off to my kids, it's like I need to tape my mouth shut or something! Everything, EVERYTHING gets on my nerves - if my 3 year old starts crying I just want to cover my ears and run away. It seems like I've been sending my kids to time out all day long, actually for the last 2-3 weeks.

Going 100% for me hasn't really made that much of a difference. I don't eat much organic, but I have to tell myself eating conventional is all I can afford so it WILL COUNT. I shop almost exclusively at the Farmer's Market. The main things I've noticed are that my house has remained clean pretty effortlessly (that is huge for me) and my skin is softer. And I haven't gained a pound which is great.

I'm just getting tired, I guess, of feeling everything so intensely - I'm normally such a calm, even-keeled person, I doubt my kids have heard me raise my voice at them so much in their entire life, and I hate that.

I guess I need some encouragement to continue on, and that maybe this will get better? And maybe it's because I'm pregnant? I just want to crawl into a hole.....

[luckitri]

um . . . er . . . . eat more?

something really sinful in the raw desert category?

[Revvell]

I don't know if this will help yet, I was chatting with Jinjee at an early stage of her 5th pregnancy and she told me how cranky she was. It'll pass.

Yanno what's funny? People think the "good" stuff wont last and what they perceive as the "bad" stuff will last forever. This may all be over tomorrow.

Ummm, aren't you hungry? Been drinking enough water?

Revvellicious

[sherahtaylor]

Well, I do eat whenever I'm hungry and until I'm full - so it's not like I could really eat more unless I absolutely stuffed myself and I don't like that feeling.

The desserts just don't sit very well with me - they make me jittery or something. The only thing sweet that I like is a cocoa powder banana walnut nut mylk shake that I make quite often and fills me up really well. I bought some chocolate online and it kind of did a number on me - made me shaky and really irritable like my body did not like it (raw chocolate from empoweredfoods.com).

I've been high raw for a year so it's not like it's a radical change for me to go 100%; I'm just so emotional, I hate it! And I've never been like this, even & especially during all of my previous pregnancies. Aaack! Maybe it's the "Raw clarity" that some say happens because I can't drown my sorrows in a grilled cheese or blizzard from DQ. LOL.

[sherahtaylor]

LOL yeah, I should email Jinjee or re-read her pregnancy ebook. I'm not hungry really, the green smoothies especially do fill me up. And yeah, I do drink quite a bit of water - with the watermelon & green smoothies especially.

I'm totally going to hang on & I know this will pass, I keep telling myself. It's just that it's been three pretty long weeks.....it started about 1 week into being 100% raw.

[freelive]

I am definetely not an expert, since i am experimenting with raw diet without salt and oil, and dehydrated stuff and very little fat just 6 days, but surprisingly this time I was not irritable(as I always when I start(like 3 or 4 starts already) raw or fast, actually I feel more peaceful and even mooded than ever. I also take enemas this time, so maybe that playsrole too, I don't know. I did have headaches and craked mouth corners. But no weakness, my energy is fine too, which was not true the other times.
But pregnancy might play a role too, especially when you have 3 year old, who does not let you relax even a minute!
You are so brave to start raw when pregnant! Maybe, you could remove the salt slowly and reduce fat content to half avocado or small handful of nuts or seeds a day. And see, how you feel. If it works, you will see the difference in a few days latest.

[sherahtaylor]

I just had to report that I wrote my previous posts shortly after I had finished my green smoothie. I was even laying on the couch, which I very rarely have had to do this pregnancy, I was soooo tired. An hour after I had the smoothie, I was cleaning house and felt very even-keeled. My stress level had pretty much vanished and I was once again dealing with every day teasing & booboos without incident.

I actually feel happy right now, like I could just smile for no reason, rather than the everything-is-irritating-me-even-before-it-happens type of thing I was dealing with.

I've decided that even though it's really hard for me to get my green smoothies in every day because of all the delicious summer foods going on - I'm going to force myself to have at least one whole bunch of greens in a smoothie every day. We'll see if that works better - and if I still feel irritable, I'm going to up my dose of greens again.

It's worth it to me to feel this way - THIS is how I am supposed to feel while raw, I can totally tell. :D

Plus, my co-op delivery man just left me with a big box full of organic: ears of corn, bag of beets, cucumbers, zucchini and some weird other yellow squash, canteloupe (which my kids have already devoured), big bag of basil, two big bags of heirloom tomatoes, a big bag of pre-cut red/green leaf lettuce, big bag of red potatoes, and a bag of tomatillos. I am one happy mama & my baby is too, rolling around in my tummy like it's circus time. :p I think he likes the green smoothie too. Tee hee