Back on Raw Wagon Today

[Shanti]

Hi all!
Well... my journey continues... I drank on Friday night, wine, and stayed raw, but I was so dehydrated and sick on Saturday, that I really "needed" (emotionally at least) carbs, bread, pasta....and I let myself eat that all day. I think I would still be in bed now if I didn't, because the thought of fruit and vegetables at the time just did not cut it.
In any case, I ordered Alissa's book, and I want to thank the angel who told me that she talks about taking TEN YEARS to go raw, because that is inspiring.... not giving up
I can't wait to see the book, and perhaps then I'll have even more RAW DRIVE.

[NYbutterfly]

Good for you, Shanti! Welcome back to the wagon :)

I don't have Alissa's book yet but I have read every other one out there on being raw. I never knew that it took Alissa 10 years to go raw until reading about it on this forum. I know we both have a past with eating disorders so I can only guess that there is a little part of you that wants to do the raw thing perfectly, 100%, no slip ups, etc. Knowing that it took Alissa 10 years is sooooo refreshing and helps me to relax a little bit and throw out all those food rules. That little fact alone helps me to be more forgiving to myself when I slip up and fall off the wagon.

Thanks for the reminder!

[tanishamarshall]

I didn't know it took Alissa that long. Here I am getting all upset because I ate some rice.

[Shanti]

NYButterfly:

Yes, exactly. I had a handful of chips and the negative self-talk was overwhelming.... I've had to take a different approach to this..... 99% raw is OKAY!
It's a transition, and I'm moving in the right direction............slowly, but surely.

[Riiiya]

hellooo! oh my i have a similar story- also drank on friday and felt like...... well, bad on saturday and had some non-raw stuff (not much at all though) SO I'M 100% raw today- drinking a green smoothie right now :D

[SparklePlenty]

I have been on a similar roller coaster recently, and reading your posts made me decide AGAIN, that I will focus on ALL that I eat that is RAW, and stop feeling like I am failing myself by eating cooked. It is fine to transition.

It's the same thing that I know about how NOT helpful it is to focus on being overweight, and losing fat, etc, rather than focusing on what I want, and knowing that I am in the process of creating and attracting what I want.... that is, eating and loving more and more raw food and feeling happy, joyful and peaceful with that, and a lighter, firmer, smaller, healthier body.

Let's focus on WHAT WE WANT,and not be distracted by what we don't want....let's let it go and allow it to disappear like the wake of a boat, and realign our focus. We are powerful manifestors and we can be, do and have whatever we want. Let's act like we know that that's true!

When I look back at where I came from years ago--decades ago-- bulimic, eating a totally junky SAD diet, to say nothing of anxiety, depression, etc, I see the long, very long path I have covered and the amazing, huge, very significant changes I have made.

Perfectionism is a destructive pattern that convinces us that unless we are sitting 'on top of the mountain', then we've made no progress climbing it. That's just nonsense. I see how far I have come. I like where I am, AND I have a tall order for life. I want more of what makes me feel GOOD!

So let's decide to celebrate our successes, learn from what doesn't feel good, simply because it doesn't feel good, and keep putting one foot in front of the other, happy to still be on the path!

These days I am following the path of what feels truly good to me. Food is where I feel the most challenged, and that, I see is more about old habits than anything else. I feel very aligned energetically with raw--I want more raw, my body wants more raw-- and am looking for the negative thoughts and beliefs that keep me convinced that I "need and want" cooked.I have the power to change them.

Other areas of my life have been easier for me to make major changes, areas that are much harder for others to change. So I am being more understanding and loving with myself about this transition. So it takes time, so what!

Just so you know, writing this has been for me....hope someone else finds it helpful. xxxxoooo

Love and Peace,
Jan

[Riiiya]

Hey Jan i enjoyed your post! for me it also shifted from focusing on weight and losing it to ..actually feeling GOOD, being HEALTHY, and in the end- happier! AND this way i don't really need to worry about weight, since i eat good living foods!