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04-14-2005, 08:34 AM
Hi guys...sorry for not being here lately, but my great-grandma is in the hospital in Germany...she had two strokes after a low sugar shock, and her body became septic, then after being in a coma for 4 days she developed pneumonia and can't even breathe on her own anymore...she's on full life-support and the EKG showed close to no brain activity yesterday...so I'm really sad right now (i am really close to her) I just don't know what to think right now...i know that dieing is part of life and all, it's just weird, cause I can't be there...at least my mom flew over, so that's good...well they're gonna give it a couple more days and see if anything changes, and if not they're gonna turn off the machines (she wrote in her will that if it came to life-support, she wants them to turn it off) it's just so weird...i don't know how to feel right now...i don't know...do you guys think her soul is still in her right now? Even with no brain activity and all, or do you think it's already moved on? aaaaaaaaahhhhhhh!!! Well, I've been kinda straying fromm raw lately, too...because of all this....but i have to get back on it...sorry to rant, just wanted to tell you guys what's up
04-14-2005, 08:46 AM
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04-14-2005, 08:46 AM
Oh Amethyst~ I send you waves of love. Soul can and does leave the body ( believe that from my own experiences) even while it is alive and often when the body is under stress like that. So your grandma is most likely out and about but cant let go of her body yet...she'll be keeping tabs on it.
My father died 3 weeks after I moved 3000 miles away to a different country and I could not go to the funeral, so I know how difficult it can be to not be there physically. Hugs. You CAN be there spiritually though!! The day before my father died I had a dream telling me to call him. ( they didnt even know I moved to the USA) So i called him that day and filled him in, we had a good chat. The next morning he died...young and unexpected and I was so grateful for that experience I had. The night after he passed...i saw him in a dream experience that I cant even explain...I had asked for the experience inwardly. You can do that to.
Love is an energy...and sending her love through your heart and thoughts will reach her-just as I send you mine now.
Email me anytime friend...my thoughts are with you and I send your grandmother many blessings for her next great adventure as Soul...whether that be recovery or translation.
May the Blessings Be...
04-14-2005, 08:46 AM
Major hugs to you. There's nothing in particular to think. You mind will do what it wants to. This is a transition for your great-grandma ~ and for you also. I know it's tough to take care of ones self at this time yet, it is the most important time for you to do so.
Allow yourself to feel whatever you feel ~ even if it's confusion. Allow yourself to grieve if it happens.
When one of my friends died a few years back, I felt an emptiness. I cried for no apparent reason. It's a good, cleansing thing to do. What you might consider doing is, just fruit juice so you can cleanse physically while cleansing emotionally.
One thing I was told to do during that period (by her lover) was to talk about her. Share with everyone you meet. Enjoy the experience and share that.
Best to you during this time. Know that you are cared for.
04-14-2005, 09:22 AM
Amethyst, just want to say I'm so sorry about your grandmother ((HUGS))
I don't know the answer to your question. My great-grandmother, when I was 16, was on life support and my family members and doctors had to make the same decision for her. But I don't know honey. Prayers of comfort are being sent out to you and your family.
04-14-2005, 11:30 AM
thanx guys :)
04-14-2005, 12:03 PM
Dearest Amethyst Rain,
I am so sorry to hear about your grandmother.
All you can do, is to send her love, and remember all the fun things you did with her, remember her laugh, her smile, and the way she hugged you, grandmothers have the best hugs.
Know that her soul is strong and healthy, and making a choice right now.
She totally knows that you are thinking of her, and she can FEEL all the love you have for her.
Do the best you can to take care of you, at this moment.
When my mom passed 20 years ago, I started writing all the funny experiences that I could remember from my childhood, I wrote about all the funny names my mom used to call me, my name is Christine, but she called me Kitchery-beezo, my son's name is Thomas, but she called him Tommy-M-Mc-Beemey-ho-pot pie, may sound silly, but we all loved it.
I didn't want to dwell on my loss, I wanted to celebrate her life.
IF your grandma chooses to pass, know that she is doing so with love in her heart because you put it there, with your love for her.
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