Sweet lips
03-30-2005, 08:53 PM
I have been revisiting my stuff - you know the stuff that keeps us stuck in a place of bondage, and attempts to remind us that we can not be free. I had to look at it to make a move forward. So, I begin again. Day 1 of Raw will be the end of March - the 31st - Ironic to begin at the end of something. I am so like that.
This past month has really been a journey for me- I have learned some more truths - some I really enjoyed, some makes me aware that I still gots some "shues" to get rid of , to settle and to move away from. I learned somethings about myself that I don't like and have to decide what to do about them and determine if I really want to do something about them or not.
My eating is a symptom of some changes that does need to be made. I won't even go to the experience that I have been through in foodland - just know that I chose not to share - and that I am now more aware and sane beyond my past activites and even my achievements in the food arena, it was like that last hit, we will every take of whatever someone's drug of choice is, even if it is shopping!, and realize when we wake up, that it just wasn't the same high that it was when we started!
Was this past month negative - not all, I still lost weight, I have had some vision, and clarity, I got my degree, I will be ordained, my daughter came home for a visit and looks fantastic (oh yeah, she's single, engineer - this isn't about her is it), my 17 year old has really manned up and become suddenly responsible, not about him either, my hubby is grieving as his mom, my mother-in-law is transitioning - that is about family and love and strength.
So, I got my 12 step program with a 13th step - my angel that is holding me, and I am good to go - made some patties tonight, some juice, got good fruit today and veggies and some wonderful water - going for a pedicure on Friday and beg for a massage on Friday as well, and breathe the fresh air of spring - set some goals that I can measure and bring it BACK TOGETHER AGAIN.
Send some love people as I know you will, and I will be very careful with what you provide as I know it is precious, never to be taken advantage of. Welcome new folks and old timers come back and lets be Back Together Again!
This past month has really been a journey for me- I have learned some more truths - some I really enjoyed, some makes me aware that I still gots some "shues" to get rid of , to settle and to move away from. I learned somethings about myself that I don't like and have to decide what to do about them and determine if I really want to do something about them or not.
My eating is a symptom of some changes that does need to be made. I won't even go to the experience that I have been through in foodland - just know that I chose not to share - and that I am now more aware and sane beyond my past activites and even my achievements in the food arena, it was like that last hit, we will every take of whatever someone's drug of choice is, even if it is shopping!, and realize when we wake up, that it just wasn't the same high that it was when we started!
Was this past month negative - not all, I still lost weight, I have had some vision, and clarity, I got my degree, I will be ordained, my daughter came home for a visit and looks fantastic (oh yeah, she's single, engineer - this isn't about her is it), my 17 year old has really manned up and become suddenly responsible, not about him either, my hubby is grieving as his mom, my mother-in-law is transitioning - that is about family and love and strength.
So, I got my 12 step program with a 13th step - my angel that is holding me, and I am good to go - made some patties tonight, some juice, got good fruit today and veggies and some wonderful water - going for a pedicure on Friday and beg for a massage on Friday as well, and breathe the fresh air of spring - set some goals that I can measure and bring it BACK TOGETHER AGAIN.
Send some love people as I know you will, and I will be very careful with what you provide as I know it is precious, never to be taken advantage of. Welcome new folks and old timers come back and lets be Back Together Again!